Admiration is the farthest thing from understanding...

Sakura Hanami 2010 (^ _ ^)

2010-04-10T21:32:00.004+08:00

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Finally realized my dream of visiting Japan (^ o ^)... and I am indeed very lucky to be able to view the sakura during its peak... this year sakura opened a week earlier than last year... which had me worried while reading the various site where progress of the blossom was carefully blogged... then came the news that Japan is currently experiencing an unexpected cold drift which delayed the full blossoming of the sakura across the entire country... and when I touched down in Narita on 03 April 2010, the sakura in Ueno Park were at its peak... The scene was simply too breathtaking for any words... so many people gathered in Ueno Park to enjoy the lovely view of sakura... as I joined in the crowd to stroll around the park with my mom, my camera was busy taking in the views of the sakura in hope of capturing this wonderful moment... everything was so beautiful and calming... never had I experience such a feeling... this affirmed my decision to return to Japan again when I have the chance and money... not to say that I am still missing a lot of attractions around Japan... one week is simply not enough to enjoy the mystery and sights of Japan... this april would be the most memorable one in my entire 26 years of life so far... and I promised to continue making those memories (^_^)

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月導 ~Tsukishirube~
南里侑香

wasurenaide kono omoi wa
bokura ga shinjita ai no uta
Please don't forget, this feeling
Is the resonance of love that we believed in

dakishimeta yoru ni wa kaketa tsuki ga naku
kurikaesu tsumi ni wa tomadoi no tsuki ga
michiru tokeru
On the night when I hug you, the waning moon cries
In my repeating sins, the moon of hesitation
Grows full and becomes obscured

ikutsumo no kokoro ga kimi o shibaru nara
ochite yuku ketsui ga yurusareru made
ai na no to shinjitai
If many hearts restrain you
Then until your determination to fall is allowed
I want to believe that it's 'love'

kasuka na koe aguriyosete
majiwaru yami no shirabe
tsunaide yuku kono omoi wa
bokura ga yumemita toki no uta
I pull in a faint voice
And it mingles with the tune of darkness
This connected feeling
Is the song from the moment when we dreamed

ubawareta yoru ni wa amai kaori tatsu
yorisoeta yoru ni wa akai namida ga
michiru yureru
On the night when it's stolen away, it gives off a sweet fragrance
On the night when I snuggle up to you, red tears
Overflow and flicker

oroka na ikizama tsuki wa warau deshou
fusagareta kotoba o kimi ni kasanete
ai da yo to sakebitai
The moonlight laughs at a foolish way of life, doesn't it?
I repeat the blocked word onto you
And I want to shout that it's 'love'

nemuranaide soba ni ite yo
michibiku hikari no naka
ikiru imi o umete yuku wa
bokura ga kogareta ai no uta
Please don't sleep, be by my side
Within the guiding light
Burying the meaning of living
Is the resonance of love that we longed for

kimi ga iru basho
kimi ga iru sora
kimi ga iru mirai o
boku ga furete mo kanashimi ni somenaide
arukitai
The place where you are
The sky where you are
The future where you are
Even if I touch them, I want to walk
Without getting dyed by sorrow

kimi no
Your...

kasuka na koe taguriyosete
majiwaru yami no shirabe
tsunaide yuku kono omoi wa
bokura ga yumemita
I pull in a faint voice
And it mingles with the tune of darkness
This connected feeling
Is when we dreamed...

wasurenaide kono omoi wa
bokura ga shinjita ai no uta
Please don't forget, this feeling
Is the resonance of love that we believed in

Credits: Youtube and Gendou’s Anime Music

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

One more month to Japan!!!

2010-03-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

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Flashmob is really a very amazing and fun event... my first time was so enjoyable and successful... everyone is so devoted during the performance... and we received compliments and words of appreciations... but the most important gain was that I got to know my colleagues better... and the bonds between us deepen till our nonsense just became so crazy... Danceflow became a super noisy and loud group... which was proven by the outings we had organized so far... I had never thought of dancing... much less having two public performances... haha... do look out for the telecast of the program that followed through the flashmob event on Channel U somewhere is september... that is if they do not edit away our interviews (^ o ^)...

I failed my first attempt in driving... and did not manage to pass my JLPT 3... which was a bit expected for the later... but I am not saddened due to the nearing of my Japan trip (~ o ~)... currently would be occupied by work and continuous driving lessons... but would update after my Japan trip (> o <)

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Everytime You Kiss Me
Emily Bindiger

everytime you kissed me
I trembled like a child
gathering the roses
we sang for the hope
your very voice is in my heartbeat
sweeter than my dream
we were there, in everlasting bloom

roses die
the secret is inside the pain
winds are high up on the hill
I cannot hear you
come and hold me close
I’m shivering cold in the heart of rain
darkness falls, I’m calling for the dawn

silver dishes for the memories
for the days gone by
singing for the promises
tomorrow may bring
I harbour all the old affection
roses of the past
darkness falls, and summer will be gone

joys of the daylight
shadows of starlight
everything was sweet by your side, my love
ruby tears have come to me, for your last words
I’m here just singing my song of woe
waiting for you, my love

now let my happiness sing inside my dream..........

everytime you kissed me
my heart was in such pain
gathering the roses
we sang of the grief
your very voice is in my heartbeat
sweeter than despair
we were there, in everlasting bloom

underneath the stars
shaded by the flowers
kiss me in the summer day gloom, my love
you are all my pleasure, my hope and my song
I will be here dreaming in the past
until you come
until we close our eyes

Credits: Youtube and Gendou’s Anime Music

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Amazing Friendship...

2010-02-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

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It's truly amazing how fate can bond people from differing background... before the formation of the dance group in hope of helping out in the D&D charity drive... I would never have thought of even speaking to my dance members... however... once the practices started... we became so close and share an unspeakable bond... we became very noisy and it sometimes got to the point of irritating our choreographers... through all the hard work... we managed to roll out a good show as per commented by our very relieved and happy nanny Fik who couldn't stopped commenting on us off the stage... then came the surprise birthday for the two seniors... and spin off to something that would carry on... the appearing of MSN emails on what to prepare for the next birthday surprises... and not forgetting the new assignment some of them took up... a new set of dance... I joined in rather late but was already laugh my heads off during the practices... never had I imagined that I could be so involved and get to learn about the true characters and mischief each and every members have... together... I felt like going back to my primary school days... where we had formed the sailormoon grouping... Nanny Fik even suggested that we could carry on as Danceflow to perform for every D&D... I feel blessed to be given the chance to make so many new friends in the company... Go girls!! May our friendship last forever no matter what may happen (^ o ^)

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ふたり
いきものがかり

Dakishimetemo dakishimetemo
Todokanai omoi ga aru nara
Kotoba ni dekinai sono itami wa
Boku ga ima uketomeru yo
If there’s a feeling you can’t express
No matter how much you hold me and hold me
I’ll take in the pain
That you can’t put into words now

Itsu kara bokura wa otona ni natte
Kazoekirenai namida wo umaku wa nai
Egao ni kakushite kitan darou
Sou da yo kizu tsuku koto wa wakatte ita
Konna ni mo soba ni iru no ni
Doushite kana setsunaku naru toki ga aru yo
When did we grow up
And start hiding countless tears
Behind badly-faked smiles?
Yes, we knew we’d get hurt
We’re so close, yet for some reason
I feel bittersweet sometimes

Haru ni fukikonda
Tokyo no kaze ni nanika wo mitsuke
Arukidasun da to kimi wa naite ita
You cried, saying you’d find something
In the spring breeze that blows through Tokyo
And start to make your way

Dakishimetemo dakishimetemo
Todokanai omoi ga aru nara
Kasaneta kokoro ni mimi wo yosete
Kimi no koe sagasu yo
Hanasanaide hanasanaide
Futari wa tsunagatte iru kara
Kotoba ni dekinai sono itami wa
Boku ga ima uketomeru yo
If there’s a feeling you can’t express
No matter how much you hold me and hold me
I’ll put my ear to our two hearts that are joined as one
And listen for your voice
Don’t let go, don’t let go
We’re connected as one
I’ll take in the pain
That you can’t put into words now

Doushite sunao ni narenain darou
Tonari ni ite hoshii tte sa ieru no nara
Sabishisa mo nukumori wo motsu no ni
Why can’t I be honest with you?
If I could say that I want you by my side
Then even my loneliness would have a warmth

Yasashisugirun da chiisana uso mo tsukenai mama da yo
Haguresou na te wo kimi wa nigirukaesu
You’re too nice, you can’t tell the tiniest lie
When my hand seems like it’ll slip out of yours, you hold it tight

Dakishimetemo dakishimetemo
Kanawanai omoi ga aru nara
Hieru kokoro ni inori komete
Boku no koe tsutau yo
Hanasanaide hanasanaide
Kono te wa tsunagatte iru kara
Kotoba ni dekinai sono negai wa
Boku ga ima uketomeru yo
If there’s a wish that won’t come true
No matter how much you hold me and hold me
I’ll pray to your freezing heart
And send my voice to you
Don’t let go, don’t let go
Our hands are joined
I’ll hear the wish
That you can’t put into words now

Dakishimetemo dakishimetemo
Todokanai omoi ga aru nara
Nandomo kokoro ni te wo nobashite
Kimi no koe sagasu yo
Hanasanaide hanasanaide
Futari wa tsunagatte iru kara
Kotoba ni dekinai sono itami wa
Boku ga ima uketomeru yo
If there’s a feeling you can’t express
No matter how much you hold me and hold me
I’ll reach out to your heart again and again
And listen for your voice
Don’t let go, don’t let go
We’re connected as one
I’ll take in the pain
That you can’t put into words now

Credits: MySpace and JpopAsia

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Greetings for the New Year Ahead?!

2010-01-03T14:31:00.002+08:00

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Barely 3 days into 2010, and I am already rushing for time... soon, D&D would arrive and I am still very not-so-confident for the performance... not to say singing 3 songs for the opening with all RC members... they better not give the the front seats... then Chinese new year would come and I am to sit for my practical... so fast!! The only plus is that after all this madness... I would be off to Tokyo!!! Indeed... 2010 would be one of the most memorable year for me... Just hope that all would be having fun this year too (^ o ^)

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Shoujo S
Scandal

sakki made to iiteru koto chigau janai
chotto dake sugao misete keredo
zutto IRA IRA IRA IRA shite wa
atashi o mono mitai ni atsukatte
sakki made to iiteru koto chigau janai
Isn't what you're saying now different from before
I'm showing just a little bit of my true self
It's been bothering me so much
The way you treated me like a thing
Isn't what you're saying now different from before

dareka no sei ni shite wa nige kakureshiteru hibi
ATE ni naranaiwa
I'm sorry toriaezu sayonara
It's someone's fault that I'm running away and hiding everyday
I can't rely on anything
I'm sorry but goodbye for now

anata ga inai to IYA IYA tte ieru wagamama
(zutto kienai you ni kesanai you ni)
aijou yuujou shiritai koto wa nande mo
(aimai sugite wakaranai yo)
itsuka kokoro no oku no doa o tataku anata o matteiru
It'd be selfish of me to say I didn't want you to go
(I don't want you to go away, I won't get rid of you)
Love or friendship, I just want to know
(It's so vague, I just don't get it)
The door to my heart is waiting for you to knock it down

sakki kara jibun no koto bakkari janai
chotto gurai kizutsuite mitara
sou yatte yasashii kotoba de goma kasanaide
shinjirarenai wa kakko tsukenaide yo
Haven't you been just talking about yourself lately
How about you get hurt a little bit
Don't trick me with nice words like that
I don't believe you, don't try and look so cool

nannen tatte mo itsu ni natte mo yamenaide
No matter how many years it takes don't give up

atashi ga inai to dame dame tte itte sunao ni
(motto hoshigatte yo tsuyogaranaide)
ai no zanzou yume miru shoujo ESUKEEPU
(tsukamattari nigekittari)
itsuka kokoro no kagi o kowasu you na
You're saying that you need me here
(Want it a bit more, don't be so tough)
A girl escapes to dream of remnants of love
(I'm always getting caught, I'm always running away)
Someday the key to my heart will break

anata ga inai to IYA IYA tte ieru wagamama
(zutto kienai you ni kesanai you ni)
aijou yuujou shiritai koto wa nandemo
(aimai sugite wakaranai yo)
itsuka kokoro no oku o daite kureru anata o matteiru
It'd be selfish of me to say I didn't want you to go
(I don't want you to go away, I won't get rid of you)
Love or friendship, I just want to know
(It's so vague, I just don't get it)
The inside of my heart is waiting for you to embrace it

hokani wa nani mo iranai ia ia ya
I don't need anything else

ashita mo shinjiteitai ia ia ia ia ia ia ya
I JUST WANT TO BELIEVE IN TOMORROW

Credits: Youtube and Gendou's Anime Music

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

New Year's Resolution?!

2009-12-31T22:56:00.002+08:00

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In less than an hour... open thy arms to embrace the arrival of 2010... so many things had happened over the past year... I had underwent so much in my job and is still searching for the meaning of it... finished my Intermediate Japanese studies... sat for JLPT 3 and knowing that I would not fare too well... helped and participated in quite a few company's events... went overseas 3 times for holiday... doing a lot of crazy staff with my friends and colleague... held the first ever birthday party for my boy boy... still trying hard to realize the dream of performing well for the upcoming company D&D with 2 weeks left... took up driving lessons to prepare for the practical at 19 Feb 2010... gearing and saving up for my April's Japan trip... and so on... today... one of my colleague asked about my new year's resolution... and I am rather at loss... just continue to hope that all is well and smooth in every thing I do and wish for...
All the best to everyone out there!! And may all's new year's resolution comes true!!!

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

December 2009...

2009-12-06T00:14:00.002+08:00

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Once again... December had came quietly... bringing the festive season and an end to year 2009... have a lot of crazy staff scheduled... and is still struggling to find my way on the current path... tomorrow is going for JLPT 3... but doubt I can make it... fixed the driving test to be on 19 Feb 2010... in short... everyone just have a merry christmas and may all wishes come true...

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I Do It
ステレオポニー

kotae no nai mainichi ga
tada sugite yuku jikan ga
kore kara saki dou naru no darou
wakaranai
An everyday that has no answer
Just the time that goes by
What will happen from this point
I don't know

yami yori mo fukai yoru no kodoku ni
madowasareteta
dareka ni ima kizuite hoshii
koko kara nigedashitai kara
I was confused
By the loneliness of nights deeper than the dark
I want someone to notice me now
Because I want to escape from here

mado kara mieru asayake
heya ni narihibiku oto
ARAAMU ni okosarete
usugurai naka ie tobidasu yo
KABAN no naka ni wa
nani mo kawaranai heibon tsumekonde
soshite itsumo no basho e
The sunrise colors I can see from my window
The ringing vibration in the room
Woken up by the alarm
I dash out of my dimly-lit house
Inside of my bag
I packed the regular stuff, not changing a thing
Then I head to the usual place

dareka ga itta kotoba ga
ki ni natte madowasarete
arasoitaku nante nai kara
nani mo ienai
yume ya risou wa aru keredo
kimochi bakari saki ni itte
genjitsu ga zutto ushiro kara
boku o miteru
Words that someone said
Make me worried and confused
And because I don't want to contest them
I can't say anything
I have dreams and ideals
But only my feelings go ahead of me
And the reality is looking at me
From the behind all the time

nee dareka oshiete
minna sou na no kana
kyou ga shiawase nara
sore de ii to omoeru tte
osanai koro ni wa
tashika ni atta yo
yume o oikaketeta
demo sore mo tooi kioku
Hey, somebody show me
Is everybody like that
That they 'feel it's good enough
if they're if happy today'
When I was I child
I definitely had it
I had chased after dreams
But that is a far memory

kotae no nai mainichi ga
tada sugite iku jikan ga
kore kara saki dou naru no darou
wakaranai
tsukiakari no michishirube
kumo o koe boku ni todoke
susumu beki michi o terashite yo
kyou ga donna ni kowaresou de mo
An everyday that has no answer
Just the time that goes by
What will happen from this point
I don't know
The moonlights guidepost
Go past the clouds and reach me
Shine the way that I must go
Even if today seems so broken

nani ga atte mo
nani ga atte mo
shinjitetai kara
ano hi no tooi kioku yobisamasu kara
wasurenaide ne mune ni kizamitsuke
Even if something happens
Even if something happens
Because I want to believe
Because I'll recall the distant memories of that day
Please don't forget, carve it into your chest

kotae wa jibun no naka ni
kanarazu aru mono da kara
akiramenaide
tsuyoku ikiru koto o yamenaide
kanashisugite
mae ni susumenai toki de mo
tomo ni nayami ayunda bokura ni
kaze wa fuku
doko made de mo
Because the answer is something
That definitely exists inside of yourself
Don't give up
Don't stop living strong
Even when it's too sad
And you can't advance forward
To the both of us who grieve, walked
The wind blows
Endlessly

Credits: Youtube and Gendou's Anime Music

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Travelling around!!

2009-11-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

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The KL trip was indeed one enjoyable one... we went to KLCC and took lots of photos... shop at the Bukit Bintang area where a lot of shopping complexes are... ate a truly delicious and fun grand suckling dinner off Jalan Alor... experienced travelling via the monorail and bus... not forgetting the taxis... too many photos to share... but those who are friends in the facebook would be able to see them soon... shortly after my japanese intermediate 4 finals and Bangkok trip... yes... back to Bangkok for a craze shopping indulgence... hope I can keep my spending minimum so that I have enough for a comfortable and memorable Tokyo trip next year early April!!!

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I Do It
ステレオポニー

Tokai wo kugurinukeru
Kousoku douro no mukou ni
Mieta akari wa
I slip through the city
Because the light I see
At the end of the highway

Chiisana itami wo
Mune no oku kagayasete
Kiete shimau kara
Will make the small ache
In my heart shine
And disappear

Oitsukenai
Sonna ki ga shita kedo
I felt like
I couldn't catch up

Atashi wa nanimo kowakunai no
Mada shiranai koto bakari
But I'm not scared
There's still so much I don't know

Supiido wo agete
Hashirinukeru
I speed up
And race through

Yuku saki mo douse wakaranai kara
I do it
I don't know where I'm going anyway, so
I do it

Akai sora wo utsusu
Djitaru no kamera mitai ni
Iro wo tsuketashite
The sky is red
Adding color
Like a digital camera

Muri ni senchimentaru na
Koto wa yamete hoshii tte omou no
I wish it wouldn't try
To be so sentimental

Datte yarikirenai yo
'Cause this is unbearable

Kowarete yuku
Sonna ki ga suru kara
I feel like
I'm coming apart

Atashi wa mimi wo fusaide iru
Mada shiranai koto bakari
But I cover my ears
There's still so much I don't know

Supiido wo agete
Hashiri nukeru
I speed up
And race through

Tachidomaru wake ni wa ikanai kara
Because I can't stand still

Kotae ga hoshikute
Toikakete kita kedo
I asked
Because I wanted an answer

Mae ni susumanakya
Miete konai to
But they said I had to keep going
Or I'd never know

Mou kakugo wa dekite iru yo
I'm ready

Atashi wa nanimo kowakunai no
Mada shiranai koto bakari
But I'm not scared
There's still so much I don't know

Supiido wo agete
Hashiri nukeru
I speed up
And race through

Kono mama owaritaku wa nai kara
I do it
I don't want it to end like this, so
I do it

Credits: Youtube and Megchan’s Jpop Lyrics

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

October...

2009-10-04T00:08:00.003+08:00

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A lot of uncertainties floating out there... And I am feeling somewhat insecured... Wonder how everything would resolve... Just don't feel like thinking too much... looking forward to my KL trip... Happy Mid-Autumn Festival... Below are some pictures taken for a very special mooncake... assorted fruits and nuts with ham mooncake...

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世界に一つだけの花
SMAP

NO.1 ni nara nakutemo ii
moto moto tokubetsu na ONLY ONE
There's no need to be No. 1
You've always been a very special only one

hanaya no misesaki ni naranda
ironna hana o miteita
hito sorezore konomi wa aru kedo
doremo minna kirei dane
kono naka de dare ga ichiban da nante
arasou koto mo shinai de
baketsu no naka hokorashige ni
chanto mune o hatteiru
sore na noni bokura ningen wa
doushite kou mo kurabeta garu
hitori hitori chigau noni sono naka de
ichiban ni naritagaru
sousa bokura wa
I saw many kinds of flowers lined up in front of the flowershop
Everyone has their favorite kinds but all of them are pretty
Without competing to see which was the best among them
They were standing straight up proudly inside the bucket
So why then do we humans have to compare ourselves to one another
Even though each and every person is different
Why do we want to be number one
Yes we are each...

sekai ni hitotsu dake no hana
hitori hitori chigau tane o motsu
sono hana o sakaseru koto dake ni
A flower unlike any other in the world
And each and everyone of us carries a different seed
We should focus all our efforts on trying to make that flower bloom

isshou kenmei ni nareba ii
komatta youni warai nagara
zutto mayotteru hito ga iru
ganbatte saita hana wa dore mo
kirei dakara shikata nai ne
yatto mise kara dete kita
sono hito ga kakaete ita
iro toridori no hanataba to
ureshi souna yokogao
namae mo shira nakatta keredo
ano hi boku ni egao o kureta
There are people who are constantly unsure of what they want
As they laugh a little put out
It can't be helped, all those flowers
That did everything they could to bloom, are pretty
When at last that person comes out of the store
They're holding a colorful bouquet
And I see them smiling happily as they go by me
I never knew their name but
That day they made me smile

dare mo kidzukanai youna basho de
saiteta hana no youni
We too are like flowers that bloom in places where no one pays any attention
Yes we too are each...

sousa bokura wa
sekai ni hitotsu dake no hana
hitori hitori chigau tane o motsu
sono hana o sakaseru koto dake ni
isshou kenmei ni nareba ii
A flower unlike any other in the world
And each and everyone of us carries a different seed
We should focus all our efforts on trying to make that flower bloom

chiisai hana ya ooki na hana
hitotsu toshite onaji mono wa nai kara
NO.1 ni nara nakute mo ii
moto moto tokubetsu na ONLY ONE
Small flowers and big flowers
None are the same as one another
There's no need to be No 1
You've always been a very special only one

Credits: Youtube

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

A new month... some decision and plan...

2009-09-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

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Decided to go for JLPT 3 instead of the recommended Level 4 by our Sensei... and will booked for a driving test date by next week so that I could own the license by the end of this year... would be travelling to Bangkok again in November for another shopping spree...

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My Song and…
Younha

I made a song for you my friend
I made a song that I will sing for you
Filling my life with many beautiful lights
And a thousand melodies
You are my paradise

I made a song for you my dream
I made a song that I will sing for you my friend
Falling in love with every part of your life
until the end of time
I love you more than my life
I wanna know you more
When you call me an angel
When you cross me look
Into my eyes

Even though my love for you
May fade away
I wanna give you more than words ever say
Cause I believe in you
And my song will fill the air when we’re apart
Even though my love for you may fade away
I wanna let my words be true till the end of time
‘Cause I believe you’ll never forget and I won’t forget
The song in my heart

Every time when I was down
You always came around
And your love of life to my life
I am gonna sing forever
I am gonna sing forever

Close your eyes
I wanna give you more than words can ever say
‘Cause I believe in you
And my song will fill the air when we’re apart
Even though my love for you may fade away
I wanna let my words be true till the end of time
‘Cause I believe you’ll never forget
And I won’t forget the song in my heart

I wanna sing for you my friend
I wanna sing for you with all my heart
I wanna sing for you my dream
I wanna sing for you and…

Credits: Youtube and Kreah Craze

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Fu Gui playing his new ball...

2009-08-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

Fu Gui really enjoys just playing with a ball... look how much fun he has with the new ball!!

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Kelantan Trip 07~10 August 2009...

2009-08-10T19:05:00.002+08:00

A fresh start after almost 13hrs plus of long journey via bus from Larkin to Kelantan...

This is the temple where we seek out to wash our face before having our breakfast... The driver took almost an hour to find it... as he drove us round in circles... till one guy finally stood up to alert our tour guide that the driver lost his way...

A photo to mark the start of this one day trip...

My aunt and uncle...

My cousin who is always so cheerful...

The street of Kelantan... so clean... and traffic is so light and way better than in Johor...

This is something which you would never see in Johor... no nasty pest looming around nor unidentified funny smells...

The market in Kelantan...

So many variety of food to buy...

Kelantan is a Muslim state... but you could see people selling pork within a market frequent mostly by Muslim... I have to say that the mindset of those people in Kelantan is indeed much more tolerating than others...

You could even find cooked food stall within the wet market...

The wet market is very clean and dry... as compared to those in Singapore...

A lot of large sized fish...

The man who is sleeping most of the time while tending to his basket stall...

Could you name even half of those vegetables?

Oh my god... look at those dried fish...

My cousin buying cucumbers... as she said that they are very much cheaper than in Johor...

Our tour guide...

My sister's hand posing for the camera...

Within these houses... people rear swifts... and they are very tightly guided... so that the birdnest would not fall into the wrong hands...

The bridge leading to the border between Malaysia and Thailand...

The water that lies beneath the bridge... I cannot imagine what would happen if the bridge gives way...

The buffalo at the thai temple...

Thai temples always have those arts drawn on the walls... and they tell very interesting stories...

The very thai style...

The wordings in thai...

The fish are so beautiful...

I felt very calm just looking at the fishes swimming without a single care...

The restaurant where we had a very fulling thai lunch for just RM14 per head count... too bad we were so hungry that I forgot to take a photo before we start eating... there's fish... lemon chicken... salad... soup... oyster fried with eggs...dofu... so very tasty!!!

The so call flea market where people sells "branded" stuff from Thailand... but I do not find the things here cheap even though they are from Thailand... which is just a few steps away...

A few more shots... I only managed to get a top at RM20...

A typical example of things they have...

A cat who looks on with a cool look at all the tourists...

The bundle of kittens who doze away despite the heat in the street of the flea market...

The place is so peaceful and clean... so unlike in Johor...

The many junk food...

The carparking kiosks...

The fruits which were so cheap...

The chicken chase... haha...

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In the end... on our way back... the weather was wet and cold... and the worst thing? The bus broke down before we reached the resting stop at YongPeng... we had to wait till about 5am before another bus came to pick us up... by the time we reached home... it was already 8am plus... so tired and sleepy that I went straight to sleep after a nice long bath... and slept through lunch... the trip was okie... but if given the choice... I would rather take the plane which is so much faster and comfortable than bus ride...

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Driving... and Intermediate 3...

2009-08-01T14:42:00.001+08:00

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Driving is indeed fun... though I have yet to grasp the feeling to stay in the right lane... will work very hard to pick up the skill and prepare to get the license by the end of this year... Intermediate 3 for Japanese has also commenced... starting the 4 months long struggle to pass the final mark and complete Intermediate before considering to move on to advance... Ganbatte Sin Fong!!!

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Again
YUI

Yume no tsuzuki
Oikakete ita hazu na no ni
Even though I must have been pursuing
The continuation of my dream

Magarikunetta hosoi michi
Hito ni tsumazuku
On a narrow, winding road
I trip over other people

Ano koro mitai nitte
Modoritai wake ja nai no
It’s not that I want to return to
How it was like back then

Nakushite kita sora o
Sagashiteru
I’m searching
For the sky that I’ve lost

Wakatte kuremasu you ni
I wish that you’ll understand me

Gisei ni natta you na
Kanashii kao wa yamete yo
Stop making that sad face
Like you’ve been sacrificed

Tsumi no saigo wa namida ja nai yo
Zutto kurushiku seottekun da
There aren’t tears at the end of sins
I’ve painfully bore them all this time

Deguchi mienai kanjou meiro ni
Dare o matteru no?
In the labyrinth of emotions where I can’t see the exit
Who am I waiting for?

Shiroi nooto ni tsuzutta you ni
Motto sunao ni hakidashitai yo
As if having written it in a white notebook
I want to divulge myself more honestly

Nani kara
Nogaretain da?
What
Do I want to flee from?

…Genjitsu tte yatsu?
…Something known as reality?

Kanaeru tame ni
Ikiterun da tte
So that I can fulfill myself
I’m alive

Wasurechaisou na
Yoru no mannaka
When it seems like I’ve forgotten about it
In the middle of the night

Munan ni nante
Yatterarenai kara
Because it can’t be done
Safe and sound

…Kaeru basho mo nai no
…There’s no place for me to return to, either

Kono omoi o keshite shimau ni wa
Mada jinsei nagai desho?
Isn’t life still too long
For erasing these thoughts? (I’m on the way)

Natsukashiku naru
Konna itami mo kangeijan
I even welcome such a pain
That turns nostalgic

Ayamaranakucha ikenai yo ne
ah gomen ne
I’ve got to apologize
ah, I’m sorry

Umaku ienakute
Shinpai kaketa mama datta ne
Unable to express it well
You were worried, weren’t you?

Ano hi kakaeta zenbu
Ashita kakaeru zenbu
Everything that I held back then
Everything that I’ll hold tomorrow

Junban tsuketari wa
Shinai kara
Because I won’t
Put them in order

Wakatte kuremasu you ni
I wish that you’ll understand me

Sotto me o tojitan da
Mitakunai mono made
Mien da mon
I quietly closed my eyes
I can even see
The things that I don’t want to see

Iranai uwasa ni chotto
Hajimete kiku hatsugen docchi?
I get a little annoyed at unnecessary rumors
What was the initial remark like?

Ni-kai attara tomodachi datte?
Uso wa yamete ne
If we meet twice, aren’t we friends?
So stop lying

Akai haato ga iradatsu you ni
Karada n naka moete irun da
As if my red heart is irritated
It’s burning inside of my body

Honto wa
Kitaishiten no
The truth is
I’m anticipating

…Genjitsu tte yatsu?
…Something known as reality?

Kanaeru tame ni
Ikiterun da tte
So that I can fulfill myself
I’m alive

Sakebitaku naru yo
Kikoete imasu ka?
I feel like shouting so
Can you hear me?

Munan ni nante
Yatterarenai kara
Because it can’t be done
Safe and sound

…Kaeru basho mo nai no
…There’s no place for me to return to, either

Yasashisa ni wa itsumo kanshashiteru
Dakara tsuyoku naritai
I’m always grateful for kindness
So I want to become strong (I’m on the way)

Susumu tame ni
Teki mo mikata mo kangeijan
In order to move on
I welcome friend and foe alike

Dou yatte tsugi no doa
Hirakerun dakke? Kangaeteru?
How can you open
The next door? Are you thinking about it?

Mou hikikaesenai
Monogatari hajimatterun da
I can’t pull back anymore
The story is starting

Me o samase me o samase
Wake up, wake up

Kono omoi o keshite shimau ni wa
Mada jinsei nagai desho?
Isn’t life still too long
For erasing these thoughts?

Yarinokoshiteru koto
Yarinaoshite mitai kara
I have things left to do
Because I want to try redoing them

Mou ichido yukou
Let’s go again

Kanaeru tame ni
Ikiterun da tte
So that I can fulfill myself
I’m alive

Sakebitaku naru yo
Kikoete imasu ka?
I feel like shouting so
Can you hear me?

Munan ni nante
Yatterarenai kara
Because it can’t be done
Safe and sound

…Kaeru basho mo nai no
…There’s no place for me to return to, either

Yasashisa ni wa itsumo kanshashiteru
Dakara tsuyoku naritai
I’m always grateful for kindness
So I want to become strong (I’m on the way)

Natsukashiku naru
Konna itami mo kangeijan
I even welcome such a pain
That turns nostalgic

Credits: DailyMotion and Words of Songs

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Fu Gui eating mango...

2009-07-18T21:35:00.000+08:00

Fu Gui really loves to eat mango... here's proof of it!!!

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Fu Gui 1st birthday....

2009-07-11T20:03:00.002+08:00

Dressing up for the party... too bad he is not used to it...

The birthday cake for all the doggies...

The cookies and other treats for the doggies to enjoy...

The goodie bag for the doggie guests...

Fu Gui with picco... his godparent's maltese...

Claris with her bishon... Happy!!!

The only lady... Gineve... I hope I got the name right...

The cake for my friends to eat...

Fu Gui staring at the candle... first time seeing fire...

Let's sing the birthday song together!!

Fu Gui cutting the cake...

Picco enjoying her share of cake...

"Mommy I want some too..."

So delicious that Fu Gui just can no longer sit upright to eat...

A very well-groomed picco posing for the camera... smile little guy... you are on candid camera!!

Happy was so busy trying to befriend doggie that he refused to eat or drink...

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Boy boy's first birthday!!!

2009-07-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

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It's my boy boy first birhday coming this 08th July!! A birthday party would be held on 05th July to celebrate this very special day ;) Would post the photos once I find the free time later this month... July is also going to be one busy start for me... above my intermediate 2 studies... I would also be starting my practical driving lessons... I am looking forward of realizing my target of getting that driving license by the end of October this year... best of luck for me and should anyone who wish to join me... just drop me a line!!

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Parallel Hearts
Fiction Junction

Bokura wa
Mirai o kaeru chikara o
Yume ni miteta
We
Saw the power to change the future
In our dream

Noizu no naka kikoete kita kimi no nakigoe
Waratte ita boku no yowasa o abaita
In the midst of the noise, I heard your cry
It exposed my weakness as I was laughing

Kimi no yuku michi wa kimi ni shika wakaranai
Chigau sora oikakete
The road that you go on is only known to you
So chase after a different sky

Bokura wa mirai e mukau yuuki o
Hoshigatte kako ni mayou
Kimi ga warau hontou no
Ima e kaeritsuku made
We desire the courage to face toward the future
So we get lost in the past
Until I return to the true present
Where you laugh

Kimi no koto o shiritai to omotte hajimete
Yorisoenai kokoro no kyori ni obieta
Thinking that I want to learn about you, for the first time
I was daunted by the distance between our hearts that can’t come together

Wakariaenai to wakatta sore dake de
Futari ga hajimatte yuku
We understood that we couldn’t understand each other, so with just that
We’re starting

Namida mo itami mo subete dakishimete agetai kedo
Hashireba hashiru hodo tooku naru ki ga shite fuan ni naru
Doko made yukeba ii no
I want to embrace your tears, pains, and everything
But I feel that the more I run, the farther I become from you and I get worried
Where should I go?

Noizu no naka kikoete kuru kimi no utagoe
Nakushite ita boku no sugata ga ima mieru yo
In the midst of the noise, I hear your singing
Now I can see my form that I’d lost

Hitori de yuku hazu datta mirai o
Kaeru chikara o kudasai
Kimi ga warau sore dake de
Takaku toberu
Please give me the power to change
The future that I would’ve gone through by myself
You laugh, and with just that
I can fly high

Bokura wa kokoro o tsunagu yuuki o
Hoshigatte ai ni mayou
Kimi to warau hontou no
Boku ni kaeritsuku made
We desire the courage to connect hearts
So we get lost in love
Until I return to my true self
That laughs with you

Credits: Youtube and Words of Songs

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

For your thinking...

2009-06-15T18:26:00.002+08:00

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Intermediate 2...

2009-06-01T17:50:00.003+08:00

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Intermediate 2 　は　むずかしい　です。がんばって　シンフォン！　もって、　もって、　勉強をやります！

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Passion
宇多田光

Omoidaseba haruka haruka
Mirai wa doko made mo kagayaiteta
Kirei na aozora no shita de
Bokura wa sukoshi dake obiete ita
If I recall, far, far away
The future shined to everywhere
Under the beautiful blue sky
We were just a bit scared

Natsukashii iro ni mado ga somaru
The window is steeped in a nostalgic color

Mae o muitereba mata aemasu ka
Mirai wa doko e de mo tsuzuiterun da
Ooki na kanban no shita de
Jidai no utsuroi o mite itai na
If I’m facing forward, will we be able to meet again?
The future is continuing on to anywhere
Under the big billboard
I want to watch the movement of the times

Nido to aenu hito ni basho ni
Mado o akeru
I’ll open the window
To people and places that I can’t ever see again

Omoidaseba haruka haruka
Mirai wa doko made mo kagayaiteta
Kirei na aozora no shita de
Bokura wa itsu made mo nemutte ita
If I recall, far, far away
The future shined to everywhere
Under the beautiful blue sky
We were fast asleep all the time

Zutto mae ni suki datta hito
Fuyu ni kodomo ga umareru sou da
Mukashi kara no kimarigoto o
Tama ni utagaitaku naru yo
Zutto wasurerarenakatta no
Nengajou wa shashin tsuki kana
Watashi-tachi ni dekinakatta koto o
Totemo natsukashiku omou yo
It’s someone who I’d loved since long ago
A child will be born in winter, that’s right
At times, I feel like doubting
The done deals from the past
I wonder if the New Year’s greeting card
That I can’t ever forget about has a photo attached
I think back very dearly
Of the things that we couldn’t do

Aozora no shita
Under the blue sky

Credits: Youtube and Words of Songs

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Short coat for Fui gui....

2009-05-11T13:24:00.002+08:00

Before the cut...

After the cut... so tired that he slept without a care...

The short overall coat...

Still relatively long ears...

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I finally gathered enough courage to let Fui Gui sport a teddy bear coat... He had been licking excessively... and red rashes-like spots were all around his body... so the short coat helps to keep him cool in this crazy hot weather... but he is not used to be so "naked"... so he is still licking and rubbing his ears against the floor very often... hopefully his rashes would clear up and I would let him grow his long coat again... but he is very cute and seemingly more active compared to when he had his long coat where if his hair is not tied... then he would be very messy looking...

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

My first birthday after working...

2009-05-10T13:02:00.005+08:00

The start of the surprise given...

Pose with the cake... the cake looked so tempting...

Can we forgo all steps and just eat?

All right... 1, 2, 3 blow... fast capture...

The cut...

Candle make way for the feast...

A group photo...

attack on the birthday girl!!!

Cake over the face... I don't want to be another version of cake...

Photo with big brother...

Mama of the drafting group...

Sweet Thin...

Darling who dumped me... haha...

Guess the present?!

A Skye Pte Ltd watch... coming with a life-time guarantee...

Lunch at Pizza Hut...

Darling I can't see your face...

Say cheese...

My first bouquet of flowers... Can the one who sent this just tell me?

Lovely flowers...

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Trust You
伊藤由奈

Hana wa kaze ni yureodoru you ni
Ame wa daichi o uruosu you ni
Kono sekai wa yorisoiai ikiteru no ni
Naze hito wa kizutsukeau no
Naze wakare wa otozureru no
Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
So that the rain moistens the earth
Even though this world is alive, coming closer together
Why do people hurt each other?
Why do partings come about?

Kimi ga tooku ni itte mo mada
Itsumo kono kokoro no mannaka
Ano yasashii egao de umetsukusareta mama
Dakishimeta kimi no kakera ni
Itami kanjite mo mada
Tsunagaru kara
Shinjiteru yo
Mata aeru to
I'm waiting for your love
Even if you go far away, still
You're always right in the middle of my heart
While they remain buried away by that kind smile
Even if I feel pain
In fragments of you that I held, because we'll still connect
I trust that we can meet again
I'm waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no kodoku o wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
Hikari demo yami demo
Futari dakara shinjiaeru no
Hanasanaide
I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness, because we're together
We're able to trust each other
Please don't leave anymore

Sekai no hate o dare ga mita no
Tabi no owari o dare ga tsugeru no
Ima wa kotae ga mienakute nagai yoru demo
Shinjita michi o susunde hoshii
Sono sakimi hikari ga matsu kara
Who saw the edge of the world?
Who announces the end of the journey?
Even if it's a long night and you can't see the answer now
I want you to advance on the road that you trusted
Because light is waiting ahead of there

Kimi ga oshiete kureta uta wa
Ima mo kono kokoro no mannaka
Ano yasashii koe to tomo ni hibiiteru
Afureru kimochi no shizuku ga
Atatakaku hoho tsutau
Tsuyoku naru ne
Shinjiteru yo
Tsunagatteru to
I’m always by your side
The song that you taught me
Is right in the middle of my heart even now
The overflowing drops of feelings
That are resonating together with that kind voice
Warmly trail down my cheeks
I'll become strong; I trust that we're connected
I'm always by your side

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no tame ni nagasu namida ga
I love you, I trust you
Ai o oshiete kureta
Donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayotte mo
Soba ni iru yo
I love you, I trust you
These tears keep flowing because of you
I love you, I trust you
You taught me what love was
No matter how you're lost on the road
I'm by your side

Waiting for your love
Always by your side
You’re the one that I love
You’re the one that I trust
You’re the only one

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
Hikari demo yami demo
I love you, I trust you
Kanashimi demo yorokobi demo
I love you, I trust you
Kimi no subete o mamoritai
I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
I love you, I trust you
Even in sorrow, even in joy
I love you, I trust you
I want to protect all of you

Donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayotte mo
Soba ni iru yo
Futari dakara shinjiaeru no
Hanasanaide
No matter how you're lost on the road
I'm by your side; we're able to trust each other
Please don't leave anymore

Credits: Youtube and Words of Songs

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Baka Mommy...

2009-04-12T19:33:00.002+08:00

Mommy is really the biggest BAKA... having made aka force you to pick out four numbers out of fun... thinking that it would never come close to even near 10%... so I just bought the number without going for the IBET... where the numbers would be mix to a maximum of twelve combinations... and holy gods... or whatever it is... the number really came out as the first prize yesterday... 8804... and the number that my dear boy picked out was 8084... I really thought that my sister was playing a late april's fool trick on me... but having looked at the newspaper to verify... my heart missed a near stop... imagine the amount of things I could do had I won... with just a barely $24... my mom said the winning would amount to as much as $4000... really stupid right? To think I spent the $24 on a shared number with my mom... as yesterday when we went to bugis with my sister... the bus rear motor burnt and smoke forced everyone to align in the middle of nowhere... a win-fall which my baby wanted to give me... and yet this blinded mommy put the bet on the wrong number... sorry baby... I know you must be sighing inside your heart too... as this had costed you the chance to ride in a car and go out together with the family... forgive me... I would never commit this foul again should the chance comes by again... which I don't think is going to happen... (cry~~~~)

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

So down at work...

2009-04-11T20:57:00.002+08:00

Don't know why... but have been feeling so tired and sleepy... never would I reach office on time... always after 8:45am... work have always been a mad rush... but with the respective deadline for the tenders or site work... I am finding myself going back to my irregular work hours... a bit slow pace in the morning... but going crazy over last minute tasks as knock-off time nears... I feeling the stress and demand... a lot of not suppose to happen mistakes occur... and I am having difficulties answering... scolding doesn't improve or lessen the mistakes... so I am a bit at loss... sometimes I just could not justify or cover any more... just hope that they could realize and make the effort to do something to retify the current situation... is thinking of taking up a bio-based course so as to broaden my choices... and the main goal on hand is to complete the intermediate japanese course and earn that driving license... no use thinking over things or happenings that are beyond saving... I could only force myself to look forward and complete what are expected of me... waiting and lurking till lady luck decides to grace upon me again...

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Gee
Girls’ Generation

Aha Listen Boy
My First Love Story
My Angel
And My Girls
My Sunshine
Oh Oh let’s go

Neomu Neomu Meotjyeo Nuni Nuni Pusyeo
Sumeul Moshigeso Tteollineun-keol
gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
gee gee gee gee baby baby baby

oh Neomu Pukkeureoweo Chyeodabol Su Eopseo
Sarang-eh Ppajyeosseo Sujubeun Keol
gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
gee gee gee gee baby baby baby

(Eotteoke Hajyo) Eotteokajyo
(Teollineun Naneun) Tteollineun Naneunyo
(Tugeun x4) Tugeun Tugeun Keoryeo Pame Chamdo Monirujyo
Naneun Naneun Pabon-gabwayo
Keudae Keudae Pakke Moreuneun
Pabo Keuraeyo Keudae Poneun Nal

Neomu Panjjak Panjjak Nuni Pusyeo no no no no no
Neomu Kamjjak Kamjjak Nollan Naneun oh oh oh oh
Neomu Chari Charit Momi Tteolyeo gee gee gee gee gee
oh Cheojeun Nunbit (oh yeah)
oh Cho-eun Hyankki (oh yeah yeah yeah)

oh Neomu Neomu Yeppeo Mami Neomu Yeppeo
Cheot Nuneh Panaeseo Kkok Chibeungeol
gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
gee gee gee gee baby baby baby

Neomuna Tteugeoweo Manchil Suga Eopseo
Sarang-i Twiboryeo Hukkeunan Geol
gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
gee gee gee gee baby baby baby

(Eojjeomyeom Chowa) Eojjeomyeon Chowayo
(Sujubeun Naneun) Sujubeun Naneun-yo
(Molla x4) Molla Molla Hamyeo Maeil Keudaeman Keurijyo

Chinan Chin-gudeureun Mal-hajyo
Cheongmal Neoneun Cheongmal Momallyeo
Pabo Hajiman Keudael Poneun Na

Neomu Panjjak Panjjak Nuni Pusyeo no no no no no
Neomu Kamjjak Kamjjak Nollan Naneun oh oh oh oh
Neomu Chari Charit Momi Tteolyeo gee gee gee gee gee

oh Cheojeun Nunbit (oh yeah)
oh Cho-eun Hyankki (oh yeah yeah yeah)

Maldo Motaeneun Geol Neomu Pukkeureoweo Haneun Na
Yonkkiga Eopneun Keolkka Eotteokaeya Cho-eun Keolkka
Tugeun Tugeun Mam Chorimyeo Parapogo Inneun Na

Neomu Panjjak Panjjak Nuni Pusyeo no no no no no
Neomu Kamjjak Kamjjak Nollan Naneun oh oh oh oh (Tteolyeowa)
Neomu Chari Charit Momi Tteolyeo gee gee gee gee gee (Tteolyeowa)
oh Cheojeun Nunbit (oh yeah)
oh Cho-eun Hyankki (oh yeah yeah yeah)

Credits: Youtube and Jpopasia

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

D&D... Part 2

2009-03-07T14:08:00.000+08:00

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Continued Story
黒石ひとみ

Sono hitotsubu no shizuku de sae mo
Hana o mamoru kamo shirenai
Sono waraigao tada sore dake de
Sashinoberu te ni mo nareru
Sono furueteru koe atsumereba
Kaze o okosu kamo shirenai
Sono inochi to iu hakanaki akari
Tomoshite ashi o susumeyou
Even just with that single droplet
I just might be able to protect the flower
It's your smiling face, and with that alone
I can even reach out my hands
If you gather up those trembling voices
You just might be able to start a wind
Light the fleeting glow known as your life
And move your feet forward

Rarararararararara
Itsuka mata aou
Rarararararararara
Ikiteru kagiri
La la la la la la la la la
Let's meet again someday
La la la la la la la la la
As long as we're still alive

Toki o koe toraerareteru
Afureru kono omoi wa nani?
Yasashisa ga mejiri ni niau
Ano hito-tachi wa ima doko ni iru no?
What are my overflowing thoughts
That overcome time yet get caught by it?
Where are those people now
Who keep kindness in corners of their eyes?

Tonari ni wa atarashii seki
Mirai no tame ni mata deau
Kazaranai mama dekiru dake
Ikite miyou kyou to iu hi
Kanashikute hito wa setsunai
Sore de mo doko made mo michi wa tsuzuku
There's a new seat next to me
We'll meet again for the sake of the future
Let's try living through the day known as today
For as long as we can without façades
It's sad and painful for people
Nevertheless, their roads continue endlessly

Rarararararararara
Itsuka mata aou
Rarararararararara
Ikiteru kagiri
La la la la la la la la la
Let's meet again someday
La la la la la la la la la
As long as we're still alive

Rarararararararara
Kaze ga hakobu mono
Rarararararararara
Asu o hiraku merodi
La la la la la la la la la
That which the wind carries
La la la la la la la la la
Is a melody that opens up tomorrow

Rarararararararara
Itsuka mata aou
Rarararararararara
Ikiteru kagiri
La la la la la la la la la
Let's meet again someday
La la la la la la la la la
As long as we're still alive

Rarararararararara
Kaze ga hakobu mono
Rarararararararara
Asu o hiraku merodi
La la la la la la la la la
That which the wind carries
La la la la la la la la la
Is a melody that opens up tomorrow

Credits: Youtube and Words of Songs

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

D&D... Part 1

2009-02-02T13:58:00.000+08:00

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

So long... Tis the bond I have with Fu Gui...

2009-01-31T13:25:00.001+08:00

Having enjoyed my first D&D... then just came back from the trip to Bangkok... I have so many pictures that I wanted to share... so do look out for the upcoming entries... But after this Bangkok trip... I finally realized how deeply bonded I am with Fu Gui... Initially... I thought I would be strong enough and fine enough to let Fu Gui stay at the pet hotel for a week... but I was so wrong... I cried when I watched Fu Gui leaving me... and my tears would fall in the first few days in Bangkok upon hearing his name... then when I saw him struggling to run to me when he came back... I cried again at how he had lost weight and how scared he had became... Sorry Fu Gui... Mommy would never leave you in the hands of anyone you do not know... If needed... I would leave you with your "godfather & godmother" whom you trusted... Indeed... fate had brought us together... and my entire family realized how much we had grown to like and depend on each other... if possible... I would bring you along for the trip... do forgive me for letting you become so scared and lonely...

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ヒトヒラのハナビラ (Hitohira no Hanabira)
ステレオポニー

hitohira no hanabira ga yurete iru boku no tonari de ima
machigatta koi datta sonna koto omoitaku wa nai
A single flower petal brushes against my skin now
I don't want to believe our romance was a mistake

TEEBURU no mukou kurai kao shiteru
kiridasu kotoba ni obietenda
ittai itsu kara bokura konna kimochi ni
kizukanai furi tsuzukete tanda
deatta hi no you na ano suki tooru kaze no naka de
yarinaoseru no nara mou ichido dakishimetai
You have a dark face, on the other side of the phone
You were scared of the words that were to come out
From when did we try not to realize feelings like this?
In the clear wind, like the day we met
If we can do it all over
I want to be with you

hitohira no hanabira ga yurete iru boku no tonari de ima
machigatta koi datta sonna koto omoitaku wa nai
suki datta hazu datta itsu datte koe ga kikitaku naru hodo
sore nanoni te ga todoku saki no kimi ga mienaku narisouda
A single flower petal brushes against my skin now
I don't want to believe our romance was a mistake
I should have been in love so much that if I wanted to hear your voice anytime
Even though my hands reach out you seem to be fading away

heiki datte sugu gaman shiteta nowa
kitto bokutachi no warui toko de
itsumo issho ni itaitte omotteta noni
surechigai wa genjitsu wo kaeta
deatta hi no you na ano yawaraka na egao datte
sugu ni tori modoseru ki ga shiteta dakishimetai
We've got a bad, bad habit of saying "everything's fine" and bottling it up
I always thought about how i wanted to be with you forever
But we don't see eye to eye
I assumed I could always make you smile
In that soft, gentle way of yours
like when we first met I want to hold you

damatta mama no kimi no te no hira
tadori tsuita namida ga hajiketa
konna bokutachi no jikan wo maki modoshite
The palm of yours who has kept it silent
The tears that reached they splashed
Please rewind time for us who've become like this

hitohira no hanabira ga mai ochita boku no tonari de ima
machigatta koi datta nante wasurerareru hazu wa nainda
suki datta suki datta ima datte sugari tsukitaku naru hodo
sore nanoni te ga todoku saki no kimi ga mienaku narisouda
A single flower fluttered down beside me now
I can't possibly forget it thinking it was a mistake
I thought I loved you I wanted to hear your voice more and more
And while my hand still reaches yours, I can't see what your future holds

Credits: Youtube and Gendou’s Anime Music

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

December... Low profile for blogging...

2008-12-08T17:30:00.002+08:00

My desktop finally gave way last week... leaving me super upset and depressed... upset over the possible loss of all my attachment and FYP stuff, my music and my anime... depressed as I am not able to keep myself entertained for weekends... But for this long weekend... I am so sick in bed that my head felt as if it weighted tonnes and the blocked nose just threatened to suffocate me every other seconds... What a bad way to be passing through such a precious long weekend... I really need to slack off more at job and look after my health before I regret it in near future...

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家后
江惠

有一天我們老了
沒有人孝順我們
我會陪著你坐在椅子裡
聽你述說你年輕的時候
你有多能幹,多捧!
吃好吃壞從不計較
怨天怨地也不會
你的手我會緊緊牽著
因為我是你的妻子

我從青春嫁到你家
我從年少跟你跟到年老
人情世事已經看透
有誰會比你還重要
我的一生獻給了這個家
才知道幸福是吵吵鬧鬧
等到該走的時候到了
我會讓你先走
因為我多麼不願意
讓你為我眼淚流

有一天我們老了
有兒子媳婦孝順我們
你若是覺得無聊
就拿我們以往的相片
看看我們年輕結婚的時候
你有多帥,多俊俏
穿好穿壞不計較
怪東怪西也不會
你的心我會永遠緊緊記著
因為我是你的妻子

我從青春嫁到你家
我從年少跟你跟到年老
人情世事已經看透
有誰比你還重要
我的一生獻給這個家
才知道幸福是吵吵鬧鬧
等到該走的時候到了
你會讓我先走
因為我是多麼不願意
看到你為我眼淚流

Credits: Youtube and the wonderful world

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Coming to the end of year soon...

2008-11-02T11:17:00.005+08:00

私の犬わ可愛いです。　ほんとにです！　新しいスタイルわ　好きです！

いつも　月曜日から　金曜日まだ　仕事をやるんです。　それから, 土曜日　日本語のレッスンをするんです。　本当に忙しいです。でも、　幸せです。来年　一月に　家族と　いっしょうに　バンコクへ　行きます　からです！

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Haha... hope my broken Japanese is understandable by all...

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ブルーバード (Blue Bird)
いきものがかり

Habata itara modoranai to itte
Mezashita no wa aoi aoi ano sora
You said if you could fly, you would never come back
You aimed for that blue, blue sky

"Kanashimi" wa mada oboerarezu
"Setsunasa" wa ima tsukami hajimeta
Anata e to idaku kono kanjou mo
Ima "kotoba" ni kawatte iku
You've yet to remember "sadness"
Just now began to grasp "pain"
Even the feelings I held onto for you
Are just now changing into words

Michi naru sekai no yume kara mezamete
kono hane wo hiroge tobitatsu
As you awaken from the dream of an unknown world
Spread your wings and take off

Habata itara modoranai to itte
Mezashita no wa shiroi shiroi ano kumo
Tsukinuketara mitsukaru to shitte
You said if you could fly, you would never come back
You aimed for those white, white clouds
If you break through, you know you'll find it

Furikiru hodo aoi aoi ano sora
aoi aoi ano sora
aoi aoi ano sora
So try until you break free to that blue, blue sky
That blue, blue sky
That blue, blue sky

Aisou sukita you na oto de
Sabireta furui mado wa kowareta
With a sound like all civility was gone
The rusted, old window broke

Miakita kago wa hora sutete iku
Furikaeru koto wa mou nai
Takanaru kodou ni kokyuu wo azukete
Kono mado wo kette tobitatsu
Look, you're so sick of looking at that cage that you're throwing it away
Without ever looking back again
That throbbing beat takes your breath away
And you kick open that window and take off

Kakedashitara te ni dekiru to itte
Izanau no wa tooi tooi ano koe
Mabushi sugita anata no te mo nigitte
Motomeru hodo aoi aoi ano sora
You said if you could run, you would obtain it
You're tempted by that distant, distant voice
It grasps your far too dazzling hand
Until you pursue that blue, blue sky

Ochite iku to wakatte ita
Soredemo hikari wo oi tsudzukete iku yo
I understand that you are falling
But still, continue to follow the light

Habata itara modoranai to itte
Sagashita no wa shiroi shiroi ano kumo
Tsukinuketara mitsukaru to shitte
Furikiru hodo aoi aoi ano sora
You say if you could fly, you would never come back
You searched for those white, white clouds
If you break through, you know you'll find it
So try until you break free to that blue, blue sky

Aoi aoi ano sora
Aoi aoi ano sora
That blue, blue sky
That blue, blue sky

Credits: Youtube and Anime Lyrics

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Grandmother...

2008-10-01T14:25:00.004+08:00

My grandmother passed away peacefully last friday in the hospital... she left without any regrets... and had a very good maid who even went to the extend of seeing her off till the very last... the maid stayed by my grandmother's side whenever possible... and cried each time she went to look at her... but my grandmother had a very grand last journey... she had raised and cared for 5 generations... and had most of the things prepared so that her children and grandchildren would know what to do... after her departure... I doubt we would be going back to malaysia... maybe for weddings... I am not sad... as I think she was really fortunate to have live to see the 5 generations and have many children and grandchildren to care for her... I knew she would be smiling and watching over us from heaven... and we would live to our fullest to let her have no worries...

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Sprinter

作詞：梶浦由記
作曲：梶浦由記
編曲：梶浦由記
歌：Kalafina

君と出会い
叶わぬ夢を見た
それはたった一秒で越える永遠

I’m calling　君を
守ってあげたくて
伸ばした指も震えてるそのまま　抱きしめた

僕等に出来る事はただ、生きているんだと
力尽きるまで　成す術無く叫び続ける
それだけなんだ
君に届く？　僕が届く？
絶望の甘さ打ち砕いて走り出すんだ　今すぐ
螺旋（せかい）の果てまで

I’m calling　遠く足掻く僕の唄が
君の頬を空に向けられたら
独りじゃない……

剥き出しの真実（ほんとう）が
こんなカラクリの心にも
溢れ出すほど詰まっていたんだ

光の早さで消えて行く昨日へ手を振って
何処までも明るい砂漠を
今、僕等は時を蹴り走る

風に向かい破れた旗を振り
君のいない道を　僕は僕の為
行くんだ……
螺旋（せかい）の果てまで……

君に会いたい
君が恋しい
君に会いたい
君が愛しい

I’m calling　僕がここに居た証は
今もきっと君の瞳の中

I’m calling　閉じる螺旋に逆らって
哭いて叫んで消えて行く僕等は

生きて、いるんだ
此所に、いるんだ……

Credits: Youtube and lunatic's blog V2

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Pic of shih tzu...

2008-09-13T23:47:00.003+08:00

My 富贵... very active and currently teething... all are welcome to visit him after end of next month... when he finishes his third vaccination...

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Shih Tzu...

2008-08-30T21:46:00.002+08:00

Officially a proud mother to my 7 weeks old shih tzu puppy... He is all that I had been wishing for since young... and the very charisma temperament is grabbing all the hearts in my house... both my father and mother spoils him so much despite not admitting it... and I find myself leaving office no later than 7pm everyday just to spend more bonding time with him... looking how much weight he had gained after joining our family makes everyone so proud... and today I brought him to the vet to have his first vaccination... was very worried as the puppy that went in before him was whining so loudly in fear... my sister did not even dare to look... but he was very brave... he did not even so much as struggle... making both of us so proud... however the shot made him a bit sick... so have to look after him very well... despite all the work and time required... I never regret having bought him... just hope that he would get well soon and start running after me... Haha...

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

One month...

2008-08-01T23:02:00.003+08:00

Today marked the first month since I started working in PB... a lot of happenings... and I witnessed the leaving of 3 colleagues... the one tat shocked me most would be the resignation of the senior engineer who joined PB on the same day as me... but no one could blame him... not even my boss... he even went to the extent of apologizing to him after he announced the decision of tat senior engineer... too big a project with too little experienced staff... our department is considered as a baby of the company... and it is taking its first shaky step towards proving itself to be as good as any other department... results are generated... but still the problem of manpower persisted... the management is very supportive... and is constantly on the look-out for suitable candidates to fill in the gaps... but not everyone wants to be part of the IR project... as the project is one of itself... and really differs from normally consulting tasks... so much so tat the company is currently sourcing out of Singapore for experienced engineers...

Even if I am not needed to attend site meetings and face those complaints and screaming... I am still finding myself working from 8.30am to late 10pm... work kept piling onto the existing jobs on hand... and I was assigned to be in-charge of 6 drafters... with no knowledge of how drafting is carried out... so much so tat I am finding it harder to find any work space on my desk... so many drawings... and so many stuff to keep on hand so tat when those senior engineers request for information from me I could just give them straight away... one even quoted a very funny reason for giving everything for me to keep... "her desk very neat... not like ours... forever cannot find things"... this added double responsibility for me... as when the engineers could not find their stuff... they just drop by my desk and ask me, even when I had returned it to them after completing the tasks given...

A lot of challenges... as not only am I exposed to the IR project... as a drafter IC... I am required to pick up another complete different processes concerning a NUS project... I almost fainted from having to keep the deadline... luckily the drafters are very helpful and understanding... they give their 110% support... and the senior drafters even teach me how to assign jobs so tat everything could be carried out smoothly... not forgetting the many times when they would stop what they are doing to answer my queries and provide the information I needed on the drawings...

Though I still have yet to completely submerge myself to the roles tat I had to play in the team... I am grateful tat I have colleagues and seniors out there to look out for me and guide me... I may have to work longer hours and put in more effort... but in the end... I know the one to benefit would be me... I just have to have faith in my own abilities... and strive towards fulfilling the expectations my supervisors and boss have of me... they all held high hopes and expectations... as before I join... our dear GM already publicized me so much tat I am hearing a lot of comments like... "very aggressive... positive attitude... optimistic... willing to learn..."... believe me... I almost laugh out loud when I heard the word "aggressive"... all in all... more work and lesser zzz time... I hope I could live up to those "expectations"... haha...

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Going back to NTU tomorrow to explain and officially hand over my FYP to the student who is taking it... brought back a lot of memories... like how I was without any help or guidance... and had to start everything from scratch... but the results were produced... and I am happy to know tat it was feasible... so much so tat the project is continuing and tat they are intending to build another prototype to further investigate... though personally... I hope tat the guy would not kept me too long... as I really feel like taking a well-deserved rest after battling for 5 days...

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砂塵の彼方へ...
Arranged by：Revo / 梶浦由記

beyond the dust storm
an extending horizon
within each wave
everlasting melody

tabibito no kisetsu wa tsune ni
kako e to ima ubau kedo
ano hi kasane ta utagoe wa
ima mo mada hibiiteru
the seasons of travelers often
occupy the present with the past
the songs from those days
echo even now

kizuato mo iyasezu ni
bokura wa nani
wo matsu no darou
GOOD TIMES FOR BLEND
mou ichido meguru to shinjiteitai
we whose scars have not yet healed
what are we
still waiting for?
GOOD TIMES FOR BLEND
I believe we will return once again

suna no umi de
mizu ni kogare
tsume wo hai demo
inori wa ido no soko
in the sea of sand
we yearn for water
even though our hands will bleed
as we reach deeper into the well

kimi no na wa DREAM
hakanaki MELODY
kuchibiru ga fureru hodo ni
touzakaru
your name is like a DREAM
a dreamlike MELODY
before the lips meet
slowly fading into the distance

nari yama nai mune no RHYTHM
ato hitotsu dake oka wo koe
suna ni inori wo uzumete mo
kono te wo nobasu kara douka
FLY ME…
the heart cries on with a RHYTHM
as we cross the final dune
a sudden prayer sinks into the sand
yet I hold out both hands to you, please
FLY ME…

Dream Port

ashiato mo nokosazu ni
bokura wa doko e yuku no darou
GOOD BYE, DEAR FRIEND
mou ichido aeru to shinjiteitai
we who have not yet left footprints
to where are we headed?
GOOD BYE, DEAR FRIEND
I believe we will meet again

suna no umi ga
kure yuku koro
subete no sakebi ga
mezasu kagayaki
kimi no na wa DREAM
haruka na MELODY
kuchibiru ni uta wo hitotsu
tomoshite
dusk approaches
in the sea of sand
all cries on our fingertips
become beams of shimmering light
your name is like a DREAM
a distant MELODY
by the lips, a single song
is lit

furueru no wa yoru no HARMONY
kodoku wa koe wo kouraseru
tsuki ni sakebi ga todoku nara
kono mi wo sasagu kara douka
FLY ME…
　the HARMONY of a trembling night
loneliness freezes every sound
if my cries can reach the moon
I would give you this body, please
FLY ME…

fly me and take me
to the forgotten realm
take me there…
fly me…

Dream Port

subete no oto ga itsuka
kieuse ta seijaku no naka de
boku tachi wa furue nagara
ai no uta wo utai dasu
every musical note
fades unnoticed in the silence
despite still trembling
we sing this song of love

kaze wo koe te tooi kishibe e
kokoro wa yukeru no darou
tooku sazameku eien no ongaku ga
bokura wo maneku kara
across the winds to the distant shore
our hearts will traverse
as the eternal melody
calls to us from afar

suna wo koete tooi kishibe de
bokura wa deau darou
ano hi kasaneta utagoe
wo kono mune ni
sajin no kanata e
across the sands at the distant shore
we will meet again
the songs from that day
will be treasured in this heart
beyond the dust storm

lalala…

Credits: Youtube and Canta-per-me.net

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

タイヨウのうた...

2008-07-20T21:27:00.003+08:00

Title: タイヨウのうた

This is a very warm-hearted and inspiring movie... singer cum artist Yui debuted with this movie for her acting career... specially loved how sweet and natural she appeared on-screen... not only did she managed to charmed my soul with her voice (started to know of her from the songs she sang for Bleach)... she managed to rope me into her acting career...

She played the main character 雨音薫 (Amane Kaoru), a 16 years old girl who suffers from xeroderma pigmentosum (XP)... this condition caused her to stay away from the sun... as any ultraviolet exposure could kill her... forcing her to only enjoy her life in the moonlight... she picked up guitar and composed songs... and every night she would perform in front of a deserted train station... the romance started when she began to notice and observed 藤代孝治 (Fujishiro Kōji) from her room's window before the break of dawn...

One night, she plucked up enough courage and chased after 孝治 for a few streets before she managed to knock him down and confess her love to him... so sweet and innocent!!! Slowly... with more interaction... 孝治 also asked 薫 to be his girlfriend... only to have 薫 realized tat dawn was approaching and she was far away from home and in the open... watching how 薫 ran for her life broke my heart... and this made 薫 came to the conclusion of her not being able to enjoy a normal life and accept 孝治 as her boyfriend... and so began the heartbreaking period for the two young lovers...

But 孝治 made up his mind and decided to do something for 薫... by earning money and let her realize her dream of cutting a CD... and through this... 薫 picked up her confidence and enjoyed the feeling of being loved... till she finally succumbed to the symptom of her illness... paralysis in her hand... she no longer could play her guitar... but 孝治 managed to enlight her and she promised to sing for him... she eventually recorded her favorite song... but with tat also came the ending in which she left everyone she loved behind... with her song being broadcasted over the radio to remind everyone whom her life had touched...

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

First factory visit...

2008-07-19T21:42:00.002+08:00

The past week had been rather tiring... due to the last minute assignments and trainings... a lot of rush to meet the deadline for the submission of packages... and then have to attend trainings conducted from 6pm onwards (in which I requested to leave halfway through on friday as it was 10pm and they were noway near end)... as a very experienced engineer left the team and he volunteered to teach us the packages that he used to handle... quite sad... though he would be coming back in Aug to work part time... it would only be 1 month... my immediate supervisor is also leaving in two weeks' time... the project might be a good profile for this field... but the stress and demands faced are unimaginable... one point that was proven on my first factory visit with my supervisor on friday...

Among the 10 guys, I am the only lady and a newbie... so much so that the other electrical colleague who attended mused that my supervisor was bringing me to a field trip to bathe in the sunlight... having seen me stayed in company as a back office support for too long... haha... but really... this trip made me understand a lot of working politics... everytime anything went wrong or some new issues popped up... the standard answer would be... "ask the consultants lor"... this happened even when the issues were not meant for us... the arrows always got deflected to our way... no wonder so many senior engineers left... and why my boss decided to keep me shielded in office for the time being... the outside world for this project is way too much for me to handle with my current experience... I would strive to be the best office backup in technical and production terms to help out those who have to brave the frontline (^o^)...

Ganbatte!!

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I am also scheduled to complete one online course in about 28 days... one on the "Standards of Ethical Conducts"... sounds very much like "Engineers & Society" rite... haha... every staff in the company have to go through a standard hours of courses every year... and my journey for that requirement just started... I was actually a bit shocked when I read the email... hope that I would be able to learn fast and finish the course soon... as the upcoming weeks would be seeing me handling a new set of responsibilities above my current job... wish me luck!!

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Three more days to convocation (*o*)!!

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

Really busy week...

2008-07-13T11:35:00.002+08:00

PB promotes a very healthy worklife... every monday... I would be expecting to get one fruit of the week... last week... my first fruit received from PB was a dragonfruit... one tat I had no choice but to bring it home (^o^)... the colleagues said tat it was one new policy recently adopted by PB to promote healthy lifestyle among staff... and to allow the staff to enjoy the benefits of contributing to the staff welfare fund ($3 per month)... wonder wat I would be getting tmr?

So far... my stay in PB had been an enriching one... everyday I am tasked with new jobs... such as consolidating the data points to check if there are sufficient electrical containment to route the points to the ELV room... comment and check on drawings tat had to be submitted to the respective authorities... and familiarized myself with the layouts of the major rooms and data points for the entire project... I found myself to be slowly but surely picking up... and is able to participate in little discussions and voice out my findings... I hope tat I am able to continue to strive and preserve in the coming months... and tat by the end of the probation period... I am able to tag along to site meetings (*o*)...

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My sister went over to England earlier last week... and I am starting to miss her... hope tat she would take care of herself and enjoy her stay... and then come back and we could get the a family photo taken for both of our graduation!!!

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I am currently thinking of adopting a dog from SPCA... and my mother supported the idea... still trying to formulate how to go about it... and my mother had already found out the charges involved... should be making a trip down to SPCA after the convocation to learn more about the types of dog available... and learn more about the responsibilities before making a final decision (>o<)...

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I got myself hooked on [新・科捜研の女] tat was broadcast on JETTV on Starhub Cable... it is a show about a female investigator Mariko who helped the police to solve crimes through the use of forensic processes and her wit... I particularly enjoyed her charisma and charm when she analyzes and work through the crime scene to bring light to the murders... and I liked the way she interacted with everybody... and the light-hearted lines and plot... too bad I had to miss almost every episode due to work... but I would try very hard to look online to see if I could watch the 4 seasons... or tat JETTV would re-broadcast the show again on weekends...

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如同栽種在溪畔的樹。。。
時辰到時便會開花結果。。。
葉片也永不枯萎。。。
所行的一切。。。
盡皆實現。。。

About my work...

2008-07-06T15:56:00.003+08:00

I enjoyed the past four working days at PB... though was a bit dizzy from looking at the drawings and having to make some calculations to verify the feasibility of the electrical layout plus checking through hundreds of drawings to make sure tat everything were all right before sending them for construction... the staff down there are very friendly... and my boss is a very nice guy who just joined four months ago... in fact... my department consisted of very new staff as it was just set up recently... everybody learn together and work as a team without having to mind too much about crossing any lines... they are also very willing to answer my questions and teach me whenever they have the free time... but most of the time... I am just leave alone with my own task... they understand tat I am still picking up the skills needed... so they never really rush me unless necessary... but they would always show their concern when they leave or come back from meetings...

I must say tat I have to treasure this job... my initial position during the interview was for electrical engineer... but the interviewers felt tat I am more suited for ELV (extra low voltage)... I thought tat my chance was gone... and yet they really spoke to my boss and without any second interview... I was made an offer... it was only till late evening on my first day did I have a chance to speak to my boss for the first time... He told me tat the interviewers actually recommended me to him and he got a very good impression of me... even without meeting me (I wonder wat the interviewers said)... so he decided not to arrange for any more interview and directly have the HR made an offer... he did not mind tat I did not have the background... and told me tat he is also new to this department... and he encouraged me to stay pro-active and ask when in doubt... even if the questions might sound stupid as everyone are in the process of learning... but they would offer me any guidance based on their previous working experience... and hoped tat I would preserve no matter how stressful...

But with this new start where I get to participate in the IR project... I think I am blessed with the right conditions to advance my career prospects... though the starting might tire and stress me out as I work towards achieving the standards and pace... I would never regret having join a company where my major in NTU was not put in use... I hope tat all my friends out there are also fulfilling their own ambitions and goals... looking forward to meeting everyone for the first time since starting work during the convocation (^o^)...

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簡單，為我對於凡事的所望。。。
創意，為我打破傳統的表徵。。。
而獨特會是侵襲你感官的元素之一。。。

Nothing's for free...

2008-06-29T21:38:00.003+08:00

Currently is enjoying my last two days of rest before officially starting my new job as an engineer for Parsons Brinckerhoff at The Concourse... went out almost everyday since I wrapped up my part time at ALS... though was still sponsored by my mom as the pay cheque was still not deposited into my account... have quite a lot of things to buy... such as changing a pair of spectacles... get a new hair cut...

Other than those pending on the shopping list... another task tat took up most of my time was to backup my images posted on one website... my earlier posts made used of tat site to host all my images... and yet... just two days ago... I received an email notifying me of the changes tat they are imposing... no longer would they be supporting any free accounts... thus have to backup all the images uploaded using another site... but the problem was... I am having trouble accessing tat site... could only managed to backup a few earlier images... and then went on to change the links of the images on the blog entries... rather time consuming... just hope tat the site would be back again so tat I could finish backing up all the images before I lose any of them...

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The song tat I am recommending for the new month is a collaborated work by two of my favourite composers... Revo from Sound Horizon and 梶浦由記... needless to say... the singles and albums produced by Revo under the name of Sound Horizon had me hooked on this very talented group... and 梶浦由記 is very well-known for her works such as those for animes like Tsubasa Chronicles and El Cazador de la Bruja, as well as her label under the name of FictionJunction... Their main similarity lies in how they managed to scout so many great singers to work for them... And the music composed by them never fail to attract and fascinate me... a truly pleasant surprise to learn tat they are working together for the first time to bring a dream-like performance to Japan... in the video... both Revo and 梶浦由記 was seen singing the last part of the song... its really rare to bring both of them to stage together... so enjoy the video and feel free to comment!!

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爱就是手
歌：ALAN

生命慢慢流
你要说话不要走
心就是手

围墙是河流
是跌倒的小山丘
隔开笑语和白昼
隔开放不掉的手

妈妈不要走
你要永远牵我手
最好的朋友

用微笑内疚
我享受你的温柔
重担在肩膀忧愁
你是我勇敢的宇宙

围墙外的手
不要让我等太久
我想看看家和朋友
离天亮还有多久

泪水化不开担忧
别让我孤单承受
什么是爱爱就是手

围墙外的手
我们不能等太久
在那里我亲爱朋友
天堂里没有忧愁

让十指相扣
陪我们一起让爱变成手
一起让爱变成手

围墙外的手
不要让我等太久
我想看看家和朋友
离天亮还有多久

泪水化不开担忧
别让我孤单承受
什么是爱爱就是手

围墙外的手
我们不能等太久
在那里我亲爱朋友
天堂里没有忧愁

让十指相扣
陪我们一起让爱变成手
一起让爱变成手
一起让爱变成手
一起让爱变成

Credits: IMEEM and Alan World

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簡單，為我對於凡事的所望。。。
創意，為我打破傳統的表徵。。。
而獨特會是侵襲你感官的元素之一。。。

Happy girl....

2008-06-18T21:30:00.005+08:00

Finally, I got an offer for the position of Engineer... eagerly looking forward to starting work soon... the current part time recommended by lao gong is very fun and comfortable for me... everyone is so good towards me... and I could mingle with them with ease... I enjoyed the working environment there and get to pick up a few skills... and everyone kept asking me why I do not apply to work full time... so sweet of them... think I will try to stay till the end of the project... so for now... just がんばって！！

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準備沉回深海睡眠。。。

てるてるあした...

2008-06-08T20:37:00.003+08:00

てるてるあした

A truly not-to-be-missed Japanese Drama... Through the growth and self-development of the main character, 雨宮照代（あめみやてるよ）, who was sent to live with a really distant relative, 鈴木おばあさん, with a few mysteries threw in, the drama struck out as warm-hearted and inspired a lot of self-reflections...

Though not very action-packed, it still managed to grip my attention with the fun and humorous lines... such as having 照代チャン screaming out "わかてるよ！"　when she was asked to perform the various tasks... only to have 鈴木おばあさん made fun of her due to the link it had with her 名前... furthermore, as 照代チャン picked up more of the skills required in order to grow up to be more independent, mystery of her possible past and relation with the dead 彼女 who only appeared visible to her was slowly revealed...

The theme song, "運命の向こう" was also beautifully written... all in all, an addictive JDrama which also provided me a chance to learn more simple 新しい　言葉...

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像是一片楓葉。。。
在永恆的秋天。。。
乘著秋風飛去。。。
不期望。。。
飛的遠。。。
飛的高。。。
只希望。。。
沿途的風景。。。
是美好的。。。

I graduated!!!

2008-06-05T21:50:00.003+08:00

Today... my final semester results were released... and I must say tat I am rather happy with it (^o^)...

So for now... my primarily concern would be focused on getting a job... having attended 4 campus interviews... and 1 through the job agency... I am beginning to get a grip on how to go about handling the interviews... just hope tat I had managed to charm the interviewers into offering me a position...

がんばって！！

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フレンズ
歌：Stephanie

onaji egao shiteta
sonna bokura mo ikunen wo kasanesugite
surechigau keshiki wo
ukeirerarezu ni mogaiteru
While we wore the same smiles
We passed through the years together
The sceneries kept changing
And we struggled to accept it

muda na puraido sutesari
kono sekai ni yasashisa wo
I throw away my useless pride
May kindness come to this world

I Gotta Say
yuuki wo misetsukete mo tsuyogatte mo
hitori dewa ikirarenai
ano hi no yakusoku nara
kokoro no fukaku ni nokotteiru yo ima demo
I Gotta Say
Even if I show off my bravery and my strength
I can't survive alone
Our promise from that day
It remains firmly in my heart, even now

wakarete mata deai
arata na michi ni hikari mitsuke arukidasu
umarete kara zutto
kurikaesu koto de tsunagatteku
New encounters come after each farewell
I find light down a new path, and move on
Since the day I was born
That has been the way my life is molded

itsunoma ni kimi to boku mo
sorezore mirai wo te ni shite
Before we realized it
We have both found our own futures

I Gotta Say
tooku hanareteite mo aenakute mo
tsuyoi kizuna wa aru kara
"yume ga kanaimasu youni"
kokoro no soko kara inotteiru yo
We're friends forever
mata au koto wo chikai
yubikiri shite
bokura wa arukidashita ne
mienai ikisaki eto
mayoinagara demo
susundeiru yo
itsudemo
I Gotta Say
Even if you are far away where I can't meet you
There's a resilient bond between us
"May my dreams come true"
I am praying from the bottom of my heart
We're friends forever
We pledged to meet again someday
Crossed our little fingers
And set out that day
For unseen destinations
And though we may be lost
We are making progress
Always

kawariyuku kisetsu to
toki no naka
natsukashii melodies
otona ni natte mo
isoase wa shinai yo
bokutachi no precious memories
Through the changing seasons
And this fleeting moment
I listen to these nostalgic melodies
Even when I become an adult
Some things won't fade
Like our precious memories

I Gotta Say
yuuki wo misetsukete mo tsuyogatte mo
hitori dewa ikirarenai
ano hi no yakusoku nara
kokoro no fukaku ni nokotteiru yo
I Gotta Say
Even if I show off my bravery and my strength
I can't survive alone
Our promise from that day
It remains firmly in my heart

As life goes on...
wasurecha ikenai kara Yeah
Don't let it go...
kono hiroi daichi to nakama-tachi no koto
As life goes on...
I mustn't forget, yeah
Don't let it go...
I remember this vast land and my friends

Credits: Youtube and Anime Lyrics dot Com

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真希望　能永遠靠在一起。。。
雖然不像我會想的事。。。
啟程吧！
前往各自的道路。。。
為了實現夢想。。。

Quiz results again...

2008-05-26T22:00:00.002+08:00

Lets101 Quizzes - Myspace Quizzes For Fun

Lets101 - Myspace Quizzes For Fun

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Well... obviously xiaoyang got too bored rotting at home and decided to kill some time...

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The most horrible recruiter...

2008-05-17T14:22:00.003+08:00

[The name of the involved person is changed so as to protect his career in the recruiting scene]:

XXXXX

xx: I have another engineering job in mind…
xx: … would u b able to come for an interview?
xiaoyang: (>o<) sure…

XXXXX

xx: … as a secretary working under the MD for Panasonic…
xiaoyang: ?? oh…
xx: … a bit troublesome since u live in woodlands…
xx: …Panasonic is in BoonLay…
xx: … but it’s ok since they have a few pick up points…
xiaoyang: (mental note to self… boonlay very far meh?) It’s ok, I can travel…
xiaoyang: … even overseas…
xx: … the MD is a native Japanese, and it would b good to learn managing skills…
xiaoyang: … but my Japanese really very elementary…
xx: … it’s ok… (more details on the pros of taking up the job blah blah blah)

XXXXX

xx: … would it b possible for u to move from north to south due to ur job?
xiaoyang: (mental note to self… wat type of stupid question is tat?) … haha…
xx: … so do u think u can take a job in secretarial?
xx: … cos I understand u r more engineering based… but… (recommended job again )

XXXXX

xiaoyang: (piss off) … I understand this type of job required JLPT of certain standing…
xx: … oh yeah… which level r u at?
xiaoyang: (felt like smashing his head) … none…
xx: … oh…

XXXXX

xx: … how abt sales?
xiaoyang: … currently not considering…
xx: … it’s a bit hard… woodlands dun have many big engineering companies…
xx: … maybe only Charted…
xiaoyang: (mental note to self… sure or not?) … it’s ok… I can travel…

XXXXX

xx: … ladies r normally doing management… engineering more for guys…
xx: … comparing urself to guys… wat do u think u can do to contribute to the company?
xiaoyang: (discriminating ladies!!!) … we both underwent the same studies n training…
xiaoyang: (dun care if I thrashed the interview) … so ladies can do engineering too…
xx: … it would be hard… but I will keep a lookout for u...

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What a horrible recruiter... not only did he lied about the position he had in mind... he did not even bother to check carefully the requirements... obviously a secretary under a MD who is a native Japanese would need a good grasp of the language... and how big can Singapore be? Why can't he get the point tat there is something known as MRT and bus? And didn't he read tat I am from NTU... which is in Boon Lay area? And to shift house just to get a job? He needs to re-study his recruitment basics... What really got me on my nerves was tat he openly discriminated against female working as engineers... No wonder he was desperately trying to talk me into trying out... so tat he could get 80% of wat I would get should I resign within 3 months or be terminated due to job misfit, which is very high as I dun even pass the basic requirements... I even told my mom... had I wanted to be a secretary... I would had stayed on the part time job after my 'A' levels, in which the supervisor is willing to train me from scratch...

So much so for getting excited over finally going for interview... there is another upcoming one... Sales Planning Officer for Murata in Yishun... which I am just attending as a training for my interview skills... could only hope tat the other engineering companies could get back to me fast... so this xiaoyang could see hope...

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甚麼正義必勝啦...
光明的存在啦...
都是拍電影的謊言...

現實中...
真正笑得最大聲的...
不是那些大反派嗎...

Random musings...

2008-05-11T21:12:00.006+08:00

My mp3 is finally working again!!!

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This is one very cute video showing 歩み　浜崎 forgetting her "Trauma" lyrics during her concert... I especially loved the way she handled the situation... super かわいい　です！ and this is why she would always be almost the top of my list of favourites (^o^)

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Your Birthdate: May 7

You are an island. You don't need anyone else to make you happy.

And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you.

Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights.

You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!

Your strength: Your self sufficiency

Your weakness: You despise authority

Your power color: Maroon

Your power symbol: Hammer

Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

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Happy Happy Birthday!!

2008-05-08T14:34:00.002+08:00

This year I had a very special birthday... Not only did I officially "graduated" from school... but yesterday hf gave me a really lovely and touching surprise... tat was also a first for me in my entire 24 years of life... thank you so much for making this xiaoyang so happy!!!

Not forgetting the special instruction passed by word of mouth to me... but yanzi... wat was the song/msg tat u had wanted me to hear? the DJ's did not convey them... so do tell this curious xiaoyang... the thought was sweet n I get to know tat the birthday analysis was quite true... xiaoyang loved everything beautiful n music... (^o^) the birthday present from u all was also very cute and handy!!! and xue ying... ur birthday card rocks!!

And 千草ちゃん, even if u cannot access my blog... i still would like to thank you for never failing to be the first to send me ur wishes for my birthday!!

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Saying my goodbyes to life as a student...

2008-05-01T20:56:00.007+08:00

Finally... the last paper in my entire 4 yrs in NTU... though the paper had me stamping my feet in defeat... I was still glad tat everything was over... looking back... I am rather amazed by my very ability to have come so far... a lot had happened during the 4 yrs... and I am very fortunate to have someone very dear to me who support me on despite the distance tat separated us... not forgetting the three friends who never disown this somewhat aloof xiaoyang...

The first yr in NTU, I was very without a friend… and hf extended her friendship and kept this lost xiaoyang by her side… showing me the way around n keeping me informed of everything tat I always not noticed or knew… then gradually… I gt to befriend apple n xy n lao gong… all through hf if my memory served me right… it had to be… since I was never the one who would socialize… it was fun sticking around the group… though during the 2nd semester I was thrown into another group with barely any one to hold onto… hf never let me out of her reach… all others tat I came to know eventually became “Hi-Bye” friends… and I am having difficulties with remembering their names…

The second yr saw me struggling with those circuits & electronics based modules… but hf, apple n lao gong kept me on the right track by studying n gg to consult professors together… then came the horrible DIP… in which we somewhat managed to get over with lots of cursing (okie at least for me)… the four of us managed to stay together n became the “4 musketeers”…

Then came third year where IA became the major reason tat caused me to not see hf, apple n lao gong for a very long time… in my 8 months long of attachment, I came to know xue ying… I still remember how she helped me collected some papers during the first day… n how she, with her cheerful character, allowed me to quickly find my anchor point in the big group of students who seemed to knew each other very well… n beibei who showed me the ropes to many things due to the “lack of attention” from my supervisor (^o^)… IA also allowed me to stay away from exams and studies… it was a fun experience for me (minus the stress of been under my supervisor) in short…

Not much could be said for the forth yr… in which hf and lao gong majored in another field… I only managed to still stay together with apple during the 1st semester… though the 2nd semester had me once again trying to find a few “Hi-Byes” friends… but hf had been putting a lot of efforts to let xiaoyang know tat I still have gt her despite not been able to see each other so often…

I do hope to continue to keep in touch with hf, apple, lao gong n xy… they helped me a lot through the 4 yrs in NTU… we may be separated, and concentrate on traveling down our own paths tat might never cross to chase our own dreams… but I do hope tat the friendship (however weak it may be) tat we had established over the span of a short 4 yrs be able to withstand the test of time n distance…

And hf… do not forget to give me your address… I am waiting to write my first letter to you (*o*)…

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Trauma
歌：浜崎あゆみ

kyou no ureshikatta kao kyou no kanashikatta kao
kinou yowakatta jibun to ashita kitto tsuyoi jibun to
anata nara dare ni misete'ru watashi nara dare ni misereba ii
The happy face I had today, the sad face I had today
The self that was weak yesterday, the self that will surely be strong tomorrow
Who are you showing it to? Who should I show it to?

jikan nante mono wa totemo toki toshite zankoku de
demo sono zankokusa yue ni ima ga tsukurarete
Time is sometimes a cruel thing, it becomes more so as time goes by
But it's through this cruelty that the present is created

hito o motome yamanai no wa isshun no kaihou ga
yagate otozureru kyoufu ni katte iru kara
The reason we constantly yearn for people
Is because the momentary liberation wins over the fear that eventually creeps in

ashimoto de yurete iru hana ni sae kidzukanai mama de
toori sugite kita watashi wa kagami ni mukaenaku natte iru
I walked past without even looking at the flowers that swayed at my feet
I can’t look in the mirror anymore

kyou no ureshikatta kao kyou no kanashikatta kao
kinou iyasareta kizu to kyou fukaku hiraita kizu o
anata nara dare ni misete'ru watashi nara dare ni misereba ii
The happy face I had today, the sad face I had today
The wound that healed yesterday, the deep wound that opened up today
Who do you show? Who should I show?

ataerareta jibun dake no shouki to kyouki ga ate
sono dochira mo hitei sezu ni sonzai suru nara
I’ve been given my own kind of sanity and insanity
If I’m going to exist without denying either

muda na mono afurete shimatta mono yakudatanai mono mo
mayowazu ni erabu yo sou watashi ga watashi de aru tame ni ne
Then I’m going to choose the useless things, and the things I have loads of
And even the things that are no use to me
Without hesitating, so that I can be me

shiawase no kijun wa itsu mo jibun no monosashi de kimete kita kara
Because I’ve always set my own standards of happiness

kyou no ureshikatta kao kyou no kanashikatta kao
kinou iyasareta kizu ga kyou hirakidashita to shite mo
anata nara dare ni misereru watashi nara ano hito ni misetai
The happy face I had today, the sad face I had today
Even if the wound that healed yesterday begins to open again today
Who do you show? I want to show him

Credits: IMEEM and Kiwi Musume's Jpop Page

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不是我們的天空
我們無法飛翔
我們唯一能做的
就是盡量不要掉下來

When we are young...

2008-04-05T20:56:00.001+08:00

Going MIA again...

2008-03-22T23:40:00.004+08:00

Once again the time has come for my final study break before I officially graduate... So would not be blogging till maybe after my birthday... So would like to take this chance and wish all my friends all the best for the last race towards the end of university life...

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床邊故事
歌：張韶涵

小時候　睡覺前
最愛聽床邊故事
幻想進入那神秘的國度
不要走　別關燈
請再講一個故事
讓它陪我進入夢鄉中

或許我是個海盜
要去尋找那寶藏
或許我是個快樂的美人魚

每一晚　每一頁
我幻想　都成真
這就是床邊故事的魔力

每一晚　每一頁
我可以環遊全世界
這就是床邊故事的魔力

小時候　睡覺前
最愛聽床邊故事
幻想進入那神秘的國度
不要走　別關燈
請再講一個故事
讓它陪我進入夢鄉中

或許我是個海盜
要去尋找那寶藏
或許我是個快樂的美人魚

每一晚　每一頁
我幻想　都成真
這就是床邊故事的魔力

每一晚　每一頁
我可以環遊全世界
這就是床邊故事的魔力

每一晚　每一頁
　我幻想　都成真
這就是床邊故事的魔力

每一晚　每一頁
我可以環遊全世界
這就是床邊故事的魔力

每一晚　每一頁
我幻想　都成真
這就是床邊故事的魔力

每一晚　每一頁
我可以環遊全世界
這就是床邊故事的魔力

Credits: Youtube and Asian Music World

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如果你遇到了悲伤的事
那么不妨去享受它
享受那种努力去克服它的感觉

troubled xiao yang....

2008-03-18T21:45:00.003+08:00

Despite having overcame one major deadline... I still find myself troubled over many things... On top of the list is family related problems... in which I have to prepare for the worst regarding the condition of my grandmother... then a really trivial family quarrel (certainly not my own family but someone really close to us) which spanned out of hand due to one party's stupid mistake in involving the law... then is the project demonstration for the FYP... the moderator seems to be okie... though I suspect he is one old man who had a very strange way of handling things from the way he taught the lectures... coming next is the report for FYP... in which up till now prof Tan still have not finish reading... more assessments and quizzes to tackle... never mind the upcoming examination... which is less than a month and yet I am still nowhere near starting... the lack of news on the numerous resumes that I had sent out adds onto my depression...

Nothing but excuses that I am finding to justify my lack of commitment to my studies... which is really bad... this xiao yang needs someone to shake me up and set the pace for seeing it through the end...

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The sheep that went over the moon...

2008-03-10T15:58:00.002+08:00

Finally!!!

The first draft for my FYP report was submitted earlier this morning... and the feeling that filled me was so incredible... relief that I am able to slow down a bit... proud that I managed to fulfill the expectations for the FYP... sad that I ran out of excuses for staying in school late... haha... just too high to describe anything...

So now... back to concentrating on my studies... though I still need to run a few more tests... just hope that the prototype would be able to last till the project demonstration... but in the mean time... let me celebrate my feat for the hard work that I had put in...

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March... quiet period...

2008-03-02T13:31:00.000+08:00

Xiao yang realized it had been such a long time since I last update anything here… and most probably it would continue to be like this till after I submit my first draft for the FYP report… or longer… too many things on my mind to think about… and too much items on my list of to-do-things… just hope that this chaotic period would blow over soon… so for now… just enjoy the song [床邊故事]…

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花は桜　君は美し
歌：いきものがかり

花は桜　君は美し
hana wa sakura kimi wa utsukushi
春のこもれび　君の微笑み
haru no komorebi kimi no hohoemi
冬が終わり　雪が溶けて
fuyu ga owari yuki ga tokete
君の心に春が舞い込む
kimi no kokoro ni haru ga maikomu

窓をたたく強い雨はまだ続くと
mado wo tataku tsuyoi ame wa mada tsuzuku to
　ラジオから流れる声が伝えてきます
RAJIO kara nagareru koe ga tsutaete kimasu
電話から聞こえた声は泣いていました
denwa kara kikoeta koe wa naiteimashita
忘れたはずの懐かしい声でした
wasureta hazu no natsukashii koe deshita

君はまた　もう一度
kimi wa mata mouichido
あの頃に戻りたいのでしょうか
ano koro ni modoritai no deshou ka
春を待つ　蕾のように
haru wo matsu tsubomi no you ni
僕は今　迷っています
boku wa ima mayotteimasu

花は桜　君は美し
　hana wa sakura kimi wa utsukushi
春のこもれび　君の微笑み
haru no komorebi kimi no hohoemi
冬が終わり　雪が溶けて
fuyu ga owari yuki ga tokete
君の心に春が舞い込む
kimi no kokoro ni haru ga maikomu

変わらぬ街の景色が　教えるのは
kawaranu machi no keshiki ga oshieru no wa
一つだけここに足りないものでした
hitotsu dake koko ni tarinai mono deshita
「いつもの場所」と決めていた駅の前
"itsumo no basho" to kimeteita eki no mae
揺れ動く心が　僕を急がせます
yureugoku kokoro ga boku wo isogasemasu

僕はまた　もう一度
boku wa mata mouichido
君の手を握りたいのでしょうか
kimi no te wo nigiritai no deshou ka
春を抱く　霞のように
haru wo idaku kasumi no you ni
僕は今　揺らいでいます
boku wa ima yuraideimasu

花は香り　君はうるわし
hana wa kaori kimi wa uruwashi
水面に浮かぶ　光が踊る
minamo ni ukabu hikari ga odoru
風が騒ぎ　街は色めく
kaze ga sawagi machi wa iromeku
僕の心は春に戸惑う
boku no kokoro wa haru ni tomadou

春はまた　もう一度
haru wa mata mouichido
この花を咲かせたいのでしょうか
kono hana wo sakasetai no deshou ka
僕を待つ　君の傘が
boku wo matsu kimo no kasa ga
あの駅に開いています
ano eki ni hiraiteimasu

花は桜　君は美し
　hana wa sakura kimi wa utsukushi
春のこもれび　君の微笑み
haru no komorebi kimi no hohoemi
時に燃える　春の吐息
toki ni moeru haru no toiki
二人の息が　春に重なる
futari no iki ga haru ni kasanaru

Credits: Youtube and Blackrabbit2999’s Translation Omnibus 2

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Lunar New Year 2008...

2008-02-14T10:06:00.001+08:00

The holidays for the lunar New Year had been rather wasted... I had went into it with a single goal... and that was to try to complete at least 80-90% of the FYP report... and yet... sadly... xiao yang enjoyed too much...

Eve was spent busying preparing for the reunion dinner... first day half of the time gone when we traveled back to Malaysia to visit my grandmother... second day was for resting... and third day?

My sister invited her friends and colleagues over... almost 20 plus plus people... and I was occupied with the role of playing host to strangers and make them feel at home... only to realized that they did not need to be hosted... A look at the amount of food they finished... and how they sat around the house talking and entertaining themselves scared my mom into thinking that she had to go down to the hawker and buy more food... incredible right? My mom whipped up more than enough dishes for 20 odd people... and one of my sister's university friend (a guy) cooked a large amount of chicken rice... plus the cookies and desserts we had asked my neighbor to prepare... but obviously the food were not enough to go around... so in the end... those who came late were left with nothing much... and my sister had to ask those who were even later to not come... pretty chaotic and loud...

What was most funny was that there was this male colleague of my sister who throughout the entire visit got hooked with playing the PSP borrowed from my brother… so much so that he refused to makan and ended up making my brother promising to give him a copy of all his available games once he buy a PSP too… and there was one primary school friend who overslept till so late that by the time he arrived, the rest of the primary school batch went home le… thus he never stayed for long… also met the daughter of my sister’s boss, who together with her boyfriend, graduated from NTU last semester… so I was tasked with chatting with them as my sister was too busy mingling with others…

Judging by the length and time of the party, I think I broke my own record in talking… never had xiao yang engaged in any conversation with strangers for so long… it was no wonder that they are my sister's friends or colleagues... similar character and appetite... and very happy-go-lucky types who are not uncomfortable around strangers… they mixed very well even though it was the first meeting for many of them… definitely brought the joyous New Year mood to my house… so much so that even though my mom was very tired and stressed, she looked forward to the coming year… and had instructed me and my brother to start inviting friends over… of course… by then we would have to call for buffet instead of home-cooked meals… and prepare more chairs and table…

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For now, xiao yang finally started assembling my transducer array le… done up with the first stage yesterday… and Prof Tan was rather happy with the outcome… so today would be going over to the Robotic Research Lab at around 4pm to commence my second and hopefully the last stage… if everything goes well… think should be able to test out the prototype… and during the waiting time… xiao yang is slacking and waiting for the camera battery to charge up… then can take photos for the report… speaking of which… I should really continue with my typing of the report over the weekend… time seems to fly for February… and in less than 3 weeks the first draft is due… which means the exams are also following close by… not forgetting the demonstration that has to be conducted for the moderator… plus the oral presentation…

So my New Year wish would be to complete my project on time… and get a really nice moderator who gives marks generously… Haha… in addition, xiao yang also hope to hear from the companies that I had sent my resumes to… and be employed before I graduate… especially from Sunstar or Schering Plough… good health to me too as I am very much in need of it with the constant running nose now… last but not least…

Happy New Year to all and hope that all of your wishes will come true!!

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CNY round the corner...

2008-02-02T21:45:00.001+08:00

Chinese New Year is just round the corner... and I am finding myself totally occupied by the FYP... just today... I went to the lab from about 9.30am and stayed till 5.30pm... and yet did not manage to complete soldering the components onto my PCB... so coming monday have to continue... though would be done in less than 2 hours ba... then have to start taking photographs of the equipment I had used to characterize my transducers... and then snap some shots of my PCB before and after assembling... luckily apple agreed to lend me her camera... *kiss kiss*... and have to go pester the vendor to speed up and give me the most important parts... the perspex housing to mount my transducer array ... so many things to do... but so little time left... I really hope to at least set up the overall system once to test it... though Prof Tan said might not be possible as I only have roughly three weeks left for my project... stress... so CNY I would most probably be hiding myself away to type up the rest of my report... and hope that I would be able to squeeze some time out of the already tight schedule to run a test and observe the result of my effort...

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The career fair organized by NTU was a bit of the letdown... Not only did the companies save up on their gifts and giveaways... the choices were rather limited for me... biomedical electronics engineering is not so hot among the potential employers that came... and I have to keep in mind that I am up against those undergraduates from bioscience faulty... not to speak of those master / PHD students and NUS people who appeared amidst the crowd... just pray that I would be getting some calls for interview and then secure a job before I graduate... and I am really looking towards the outcome of the Japanese company I had applied...

So just look around here and you should be able to find any updates on the matters at hand that is currently bothering this freaking-out-soon xiao yang...

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月華の螺旋
(桃華月憚主題曲)

作詞：片桐由摩
作曲：KIM's SOUNDROOM
編曲：上松範康 (Element Garden)
歌：飛蘭 -フェイラン-

花の褥に抱かれながら紡ぐ夢に
月の陽炎　貴方の声を運び幾度も揺れる
hana no shitone ni idakare nagara tsumugu yume ni
tuki no kagerou anata no koe o hakobi ikuto mo yureru

浅い微睡み　私はそっと瞼を開け
夜のきざはし　確かめるように貴方を捜し始める
asai madoromi watashi wa sotto mabuta o ake
yoru no kizahashi tashikameru youni anata o sagashi hajimeru

降り注ぐ　記憶の欠片
花びらのように
私の腕は扉を開く
愛しい声を求めて
furisosogu kioku no kakera
hanabira no youni
watashi no ude wa tobira o hiraku
itoshii koe o motomete

触れ合う指先に　重なる言葉(ことのは)
巡り会う永遠　繋がる刻(とき)
見付けてねもう一度　どんな運命(さだめ)でも
この手できっとまた
fureau yubisaki ni kasanaru kotonoha
meguriau eien tsunagaru toki
mitsukete ne mou ichido donna sadame demo
kono te de kitto mata

咎の鎖に守られながら織る幻
月の染め糸　貴方の夢を見せて何度も光る
toga no kusari ni mamorare nagara oru maboroshi
tsuki no some ito anata no yume o misete nandomo hikaru

遠い刹那に　私は深く沈み込んで
終(つい)の螺旋の果てでまた貴方に惑い揺らいでゆく
tooi setsuna ni watashi wa fukaku shizumikonde
tsui no rasen no hate de mata anata ni madoi yuraide yuku

砕け散る　時間の欠片
花びらのように
私は願う　最後の鍵を
刻(とき)を閉じ込めるために
kudake chiru jikan no kakera
hanabira no youni
watashi wa negau saigo no kagi o
toki o tojikomeru tame ni

終わらぬ恋のまま　醒めぬ夢のまま
見果てぬ約束を　抱いて眠る
口付けてもう一度　あの夜のように
恋した夜のように
owaranu koi no mama samenu yume no mama
mi hatenu yakusoku o daite nemuru
kuchizukete mou ichido ano yoru no youni
koishita yoru no youni

途切れぬ想いなら　消せぬ想いなら
幾度巡っても貴方だけを
抱き締めてもう一度　約束の場所で
その手できっと
togirenu omoi nara kesenu omoi nara
ikutabi megutte mo anata dake o
dakishimete mou ichido yakusoku no basho de
sono te de kitto

Credits: XUITE and j1mOne’s

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明瞭世間紅塵紛擾，遙不可及的夢想剎然消聲匿跡。
淚淌，伸手已不可著的一切，如何尋回？

finally an update...

2008-01-23T16:17:00.000+08:00

So long I have declared myself MIA from my blogging… and finally today I managed to find the time and mood to pen down something… so beware of the length…

Firstly… to share some “good” news… the purchase orders, or so known as PO to many, of mine were approved at last… imagine the pain of having to wait endlessly for 4 signatures to be collected… I am truly amazed by how lazy and slack those staff from the purchasing department is… and the incredible “workload” of those higher-ups which prevented them from just putting a single signature onto the PO approval sheet… no wonder this time round majority of the final year students opted to do software-based projects… cause no need to wait for the POs to be approved… no need to fear that the project would not be finished on time due to some stupid system the university adopted and the working culture down here… I could go on and on… but decided to save some energy for other things…

The consequence of having to wait?

Start my FYP report… and honestly… I am not prepared to type anything yet… but Prof Tan had instructed me to come up with something… so that I could discuss with him and listen to his feedbacks… it might sounds good to have such caring supervisor… but I am stressed… already stuck at the introduction for more than 5 days… though eventually I managed to crap out something presentable and move on towards the literature review today… only to be distracted with the increasing number of people who come to the lab… still a long way to go… and with the many other commitments cropping up… I just pray that Prof Tan would be too busy to remember I exist till next Thursday bah…

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Japanese lessons are fun despite the homework and spellings… Homma-sensei is very humorous and energetic… His command of English is also better than many native Japanese… so I have no problem understanding his explanations… and he always bring along a very huge luggage when he comes to class… making me wonder what he kept inside… so I truly enjoyed the lessons and picked up a few basic greetings and is able to ask people a few basic questions and answer them… the only “bad” part would be that Homma-sensei is very particular about the writing… he had stressed that he would like us to write correctly… and every strokes would be practiced under his guidance… but his intention is understandable… I might try to show what I had learnt here… do look out for any new features ba…

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This semester… I have a very attitude lecturer whom I would be seeing for two modules… he is a monster… and treat us worse than a primary school kid… forever he would shake his head and scold us for giving him blank looks… but who would not do that when it is a 8.30am lecture… and he accused us of not been able to understand him… even though we can just fine since we had heard the same stuff for more than 10 times… and yet… to add on… he even “predicted” that we would not be able to answer his questions when the assessment comes on week 13… so much so that I am totally pissed off with him… no wonder those who had taken his other module last semester had advised us against taking his module… cannot ask question… and have to endure his super lousy attitude… he better not let me see him other than needed… he top my hate-list, toppling MH from the first position… that is my extend of disgust I feels…

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EEE is really cheapskate… what good is 6 packets of tissues doing in the supposing “WOW” goody bag? Not even some notebook or some foolscap paper… no wonder nobody wanted… and the program lined up was also so bad that no crowd could be seen… what on earth happened? Where are the money that we had contributed towards them through the school fees? First time xiao yang managed to find some time to join in the “fun” and experience grabbing goody bag… and yet… haiz~ just have to wait for the Union Day one… and hope that it would fall on either Monday or Wednesday…

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Busy weekend...

2008-01-14T12:14:00.000+08:00

Spent a great weekend out shopping…

Met apple at Bugis to go Sim Lim Tower to get the components needed for my PCB… then had lunch together at the food court… super packed during the peak hours… though we managed to grab a sit in no time… ate the Thailand fried noodles… huge serving with lots of seafood and yummy peanuts… a mouth-watering dish for a rather hungry xiao yang… Haha…

After the feast came the window shopping part… both of us set our eyes on the new year cards… and I am tore between whether to get one for Prof Tan or not… since we had decided to get the pineapple tarts le… would be buying those 3-for-10 bucks one… so can share between hui fen, apple and me… that is if hui fen agrees (^o^)… so in the end… each of us just got two cards… and received a rather cute looking pink-colored plastic holder for the purchase…

But the crowd at Bugis was rather scary… everyway we turned… it was just people… maybe it was due to the fact that xiao yang is not very fond of going out… begin cooped up at home too long le… that’s why a little more people then would feel suffocating… but the little outing with apple was fun… and I enjoyed sending apple home (*o*)… maybe we could arrange for another one to get the gifts for the professor and enjoy the festival mood!!

On Sunday… went to Chinatown with my parents to get the decorations for New Year… but in the end… it became a trip to buy clothes for me… had intended not to buy any new clothes for the New Year… but that resolve melted upon seeing those clothes on sales at This Fashion… they might be a bit out-of-fashion… but the designs were very nice and fanciful… not to add to the fact that each piece only cost about 6-8 bucks… so bought a total of 5 pieces… spending 18 bucks… as the reminder 20 bucks were waivered courtesy of my mom (^o^)… this had my sister jumping and pouting when she came back from her project discussion… and made my mom promised that she would accompany her to Chinatown this coming weekend…

And so… I enjoyed the weekend but sacrificed the time to do my tutorials… and I am still in no mood to start them any where… but would have to buck up if I am to ace my studies this semester… so…

Sinful temptations begone!!!

Else I would seriously have trouble covering my school fees for this semester… Haha…

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Suddenly realized that xiao yang is gaining too much weight… had trouble fitting into M-sized skirts during my quest for New Year clothing… so decided to go into a diet… starting today…

Wonder how long would I last… Any bets?

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Bye bye to my minor...

2008-01-09T10:31:00.000+08:00

I finally did it… I had made up my mind on the modules to take… And decided to place my priority in areas needed… Thus, I dropped the idea of completing my Chinese minor… The workload and demands of Chinese modules are too much to bear… And I am not about to sacrifice my FYP… It still requires me to input hours and hours of effort… And comparing both… FYP is of course naturally of higher priority… As the result of it would affect the outcome of my final standing upon graduation… Minor is just an additional piece of information that would be reflected on the transcript… Hence, I would not be too bothered by just how close I had been to finishing the minor… Instead… I would be focusing on my core modules and aspire to ace them… The loss would be balance out by the extra time gained to use on my FYP… A choice that is far wiser than having to struggle between the demands of the minor and do badly in my core modules…

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New Year Resolution 2008...

2008-01-02T12:08:00.000+08:00

The last day of 2007 was spent going KTV with friends… it was my first outing with them… and my debut KTV trip… not to say a very pleasant and fun experience… as expected… I paled in comparison when it came to singing… yanzi was so high that we bullied her by refusing her the ownership of the remote control… lao gong had a very nice voice and huifen amazed me… yanzi even tried to show me her talents in mimicking wuzhongxian and ella… though she was a bit out of it… and shone when she sang duet with huifen by imitating jayzhou… haha… finally understood the passion in visiting KTV… it was so fun and crazy… we extended our stay and then tried to get the most out of it by singing so many “last song”… till yanzi saw one staff who had came and told us to sing our last piece staring at her…

And yes… after the outing… yanzi had told me to write an essay on my feelings… and huifen added the one thousand words limit… sorry but I would not be able to make it… and yanzi… I would try to learn more songs… though do not count on it coming true in the near future… HAHA… ok… hope that we would be able to arrange another trip again… I am looking forward to K-ge with you all!!

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I witnessed a mini-countdown celebration from my kitchen’s window… Causeway Point actually held a party and when the New Year arrived… a display of fireworks lighted up the area… and I had a clear view of it… it was so beautiful… too bad I did not have with me any camera to snap any pictures and share the scene with all… a pity as it was the first year any party of this scale was spotted in neighborhood… not to speak of the expensive fireworks… but my brother had summarized it rather nicely… “they let you enjoy the fireworks tonight… tomorrow onwards they make you pay more for everything”… which was quite true…

The New Year message from the PM had painted such rosy pictures and vision for the coming year… and yet nothing was true… everything was just pertaining to certain groups… and those groups never involve me or my family or relatives… the hike in everything is becoming more and more of a burden… though with three working adults at home… every dollar spent had to be calculated and ways had to be implemented to save whatever we could… thus resulting in me cursing and swearing at the school when they did not offer my the jobs I had applied for…

Thus, my main wish for the New Year is to do well for my academics… then get a job as soon as I graduate… and stay healthy for the fear of medical cost… last but not least… adapt to having an extra member in the house and stay alive…

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Forest by Emily Bindiger
テレビ東京アニメーション『エル・カザド』オリジナルサウンドトラック1

Summer rain falls on the apple branches
lights from heaven dancing with the shadows

come take my hand
let me be in your forest

sometimes you think loneliness is better than pain
and you sink deeper in your valley

is this the place to be, in your memory?

no, I never wanna lose you in the forest of the night
in vanity’s lair
yearning for the angel calling
hear the lonely prayer ringing through the land of rain
across the thin air
they sing voice to voice
the ancient melodies
calling you

autumn goes by
combing twilight into my hair
I look back on the passing tenderness

let me stay by your side
in your memory

no, you’re never gonna find me in the forest of the night
in vanity’s lair
no more holly angel calling
hear my lonely prayer ringing through the land of rain
across the thin air
we sing voice to voice
the ancient melodies
I’m calling you

melodies~
calling you~

Credits: IMEEM and FictionJunction

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The Christmas Tree...

2007-12-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

Get Your Own! | More Flash Toys

Sharing my Joy... Results 2007...

2007-12-28T09:55:00.000+08:00

Indeed, I am jumping in joy... My fears for my results vanished upon seeing my results... I was still lingering in the aftermath of my nightmare the previous night... Where I was crying over my badly done and lots of Fs results... And then, my heartbeat pace doubled its normal speed when I received the MSN messages from my friends... I stopped and hesisted... But still, it had to be done... Only to my surprise... The results that were reflected was totally beyond my expectations... Even though I knew that I should not be drowning in happiness... The results only proved that I need to work harder next semester... Nevertheless, I am going to share my joy with all... And looking forward to the KTV trip on monday!!

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Exam Yr	Semester	Subject Code	Exam Grade
2007	1	EE4041	B+
2007	1	EE4901	B
2007	1	EE4905	A-
2007	1	EE4906	B
2007	1	EE4907	B
2007	1	HT401	B+
2007	1	HW301	B

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Post Christmas...

2007-12-26T11:00:00.000+08:00

人= 吃饭+睡觉+上班+玩
猪= 吃饭+睡觉
代入：人= 猪+上班+玩
即：人-玩 = 猪+上班
结论：不玩的人 = 上班的猪

男人= 吃饭+睡觉+赚钱
猪= 吃饭+睡觉
男人= 猪+赚钱
猪= 男人-赚钱
所以：男人不赚钱等于猪

女人= 吃饭+睡觉+花钱
猪= 吃饭+睡觉
代入上式得：女人= 猪+花钱
移项得：女人-花钱= 猪
结论：女人不花钱都是猪

综合以上：男人为女人不变成猪而赚钱。女人为男人不变成猪而花钱。

男人+女人= 两头猪

Credits: Xue Ying

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This christmas had to be the worst one I had spent... Nothing special on TV... No outings or date... Just sleeping and eating... It was downright boring!! And the entire neighborhood was so quiet that I even heard someone playing chinese new year songs... Whatever happened to the festival mood??

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Finally managed to wrap up a major portion of my fyp... Currently waiting for the technician to send the PO to the various vendors... So now I could slack a little bit... But this had me looking at NTU in another light... The professors themselves had some problem working together to get any project done... And some even dumped their students... One whom I got referred to gave the wrong information and impossible advices... It was amazing that I could complete the tasks given... But all in all, Tan Meng Tong had been very nice... He knew that I am a bit slow in progress... But he still told me it was alright... And that the project itself posed challenges... Just hope that I would be able to obtain the objective and not let him down...

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Two more days... And the results would be released...

STRESS!!

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Sick...

2007-12-21T15:53:00.000+08:00

Is feeling super tired and sick... No mood to do anything constructive... And no heart to eat anything... Head is so heavy and pounding so badly that I am seeing double in mist... Just feel like dropping dead on my bed and sleep my way till 2008... And I know that I should go visit a doctor... But could not find the energy to sit down there and wait... Or at the very least just go home now... I really should pack and just leave... Maybe drop by the medical center and say hi to the doctor... Praying at the same time that there would not be any people down there...

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Mood...

2007-12-17T11:15:00.000+08:00

冬天的步伐已经悄悄到来。。。
而我的心情也渐渐往下坠。。。
太多的是与非的发生。。。
令我无法释怀。。。
无法逃离。。。
蠢蠢欲飞的凤凰，却被无形的网捆住。。。
是喜，是苦，是忧，是悲。。。
已无法分得清。。。
只能默默地过着每一天。。。
静静地接受每一种心情。。。
苦苦的紧握着心中的那一丝小希望。。。
相信凤凰总有一天能展翅高翔。。。

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So slacking and in self-pity...

2007-12-13T11:20:00.000+08:00

I am so pathetic... Without my sister's laptop, I am practically stuck in the lab doing nothing... I tried to solve the problem by having the lab technician installing a trial version... And yet that stupid installed free-to-try-for-30-days program was unable to recognize many of my circuit components... And thus, I found myself surfing the net for available career positions... Only to realize that with my field of studies, I am actually quite limited in my choices... Many of my dream jobs were out of my scope and grasp... The more I search, the more depressed I got... It is just not my day... And I am angry over my lack of ability to own a laptop... Dependency on others left me in this pitiful state when they suddenly declare that they could not lend you the only device you critically needed for your fyp...

私はこのタイプの人生が嫌いです。

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Rushed back to malaysia yesterday in the night to settle some rather not-so-much-of-my-concern staff... My mom had dragged me along though I totally see no need to... My sister dominated the entire negotiation and I had nothing more to do than to flip through documents written in malay and pretended that I could understand them... Wasted my time and I was forced to leave the lab early without showing my supervisor the amended drawings... This had me landed in the above mentioned crisis... It also added to my woes and curses when I was caught in the jam... A jam of people and factory buses... In the end, I only reached home around 11pm... Why had it to be like that? I rather stay behind at home alone and enjoy my 劉伯溫 than to be stuck at the custom inhaling smoke from buses and in the company of those workers... But when you have a sister who would bad-mouthed your stay-home intention and a mom who is overly sensitive, there are hardly any choices to make regarding the issue and orders on hand...

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Marching towards Christmas...

2007-12-10T10:06:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to say... My life totally revolved around FYP... And I am trying very hard to avoid going home too early... Bad news enough that the last holiday as a student had to be spent coming back to school for project... And throw in two kids who could end the world... Thanks, but I prefer to stay away from home as long as I could... I am having phobia about seeing them... They had made my life as dark as nothingness... How I envy my brother and sister who are having minimum contact with them... And what a tragedy to be fearful of staying home due to them... I hated it... But I still have to bear with it as long as I am unable to contribute financially to the family... So much so that I had decided to go ahead with the minor... Just as long as I do not need to stay home when school reopens next semester... Simply because my mom volunteers to keep the primary school going one over at my house during the weekdays... I could already foresee myself going crazy if I am to stick around at home...

However could any kids be as spoilt and bad mannered as them??

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Tears Infection
by KAORI
Opening Theme for Myself; Yourself

Iki o koroshite toki o tomeru
Owari ni shiyou kono merodi
Surudoi itami ga netsu o sarai
Kuroku nagarete hitomi o tojita
I hold my breath and stop the time
Let’s make this melody end
The sharp pain kidnapped my passion
I cried black tears and closed my eyes

Furuete iru kokoro no katasumi ni
Kimi ga naite ita
Jibun ja nai dareka no tame nara
Sou nanika o ima kaerareru
Kakushin nante hodotooi kedo
In the corner of your trembling heart
You were crying
If it’s for someone else, not myself
Then yeah, I can change something now
My confidence is far off, but-

Boku wa tada…
Tojikometa kioku ni kimi o mitsukedashitakute
Sugao no mama de ano basho ni kaerou
Hanabira mo chiru you na me ni mienai kaze ga fuki
Tsumazukinagara waraikaesu yo
Dakara mou nakanaide kirei na asu ga
Bokura o hitsuyou to shite iru
I’m just…
I want to find you in my locked-up memories
And while still with an honest face, I’ll return to that place
A wind that I can’t see, like how flower petals also scatter, blows
And while I stumble, I’ll laugh back at you
So please don’t cry anymore, a beautiful future
Is needing us

Nibiiro no hako furui redio
Nagaredasu no wa ano merodii
Mimi o fusaide nigeru no wa naze?
Yume no tsuzuki wa doko de mireru no?
A dark gray box; an old radio
What drifts out is that melody
Why do you plug your ears and run away?
Where can I keep having my dream?

Taema mo naku ano hi no keshiki ga
Toorisugiru kara
Isshun de mo sunao ni nareru yo
Sou nanika o ima kaerareru
Kotae wa kitto doko ni mo nai kedo
Because the scenery from that day
Passes by incessantly
Even if it’s for a moment, I can be honest
Yeah, I can change something now
The answer certainly won’t exist anywhere, but-

Masshiro na…
Kimi ga kimi no mama de ano hi ni kaerenakute mo
Daiji na koto wa kono saki ni egaikou
Sekaijuu dokoka de kizutsuitari warattari
Ima mo koushite toki wa tsuzuiteru
Dakara mou kanashimi o kurikaesazu ni
Bokura wa imi ga atte koko ni iru
Pure white…
Even if you can’t return to that day while you’re still as you are
Let’s draw the important things ahead of this
Somewhere all over the world, we get hurt and laugh
Even now time continues on like this
So without repeating the sorrow anymore
We’re here with a meaning

Credits: Youtube and {Words of Songs}

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The horrible exams...

2007-11-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

Finally lasted through the entire exam period... Though I am no way near happy looking back at the nightmare that I had underwent... This semester the exam formats shocked the life out of me... Past year papers became useless in the preparation for what's to come... Totally mostly theory which was something that was never revealed in past semester's paper or the tutorials... And those lecturers happily "tip" us to follow the tutorials... A major trap that had all students stunned...

EE4041 Human Resource Management

Try doing a question that practically required you to throw in your 100 over pages of Blue Ocean Strategy report and the come up with a strategy to negotiate with some Chinese executives plus 25 MCS to top off the task... Believe me... The first question had me spending almost 1 full hour out of the pathetic two given... Leaving barely enough to complete the rest... No wonder... What more to expect from a stupid individual who talks nothing but of military tactics?? Just my luck to be attending a module headed by such a course coordinator...

EE4901 Biomedical Control System Design

The first part of the only question had me jumping over the moon (or would had done so if there was one)... But the killer presented itself in the second part... I totally had no idea about what the question wanted... And ended writing what I understood and hoping that it would be the right answer... The very first real blow after EE4901... But later managed to deceive myself after learning that the "神" in our module had felt that the paper was a bit difficult despite the fact that it was an open book examination...

EE4906 Medical Imaging System

Here the real nightmare started... The format of the paper had me staring and flipping through the paper in despair... Nothing like the calculation-based past semester paper... And the first lecturer had kept on touching on a rather foreign method which I was pretty sure that he had not cover in details during lectures... And I curses his disappearing acts when we tried in vain looking for him to answer our questions and doubts arising from trying out the past year papers... Which could had helped me secured at least a major portion of the marks for question one...

EE4907 Bioelectronics

One truly theory-based paper with lots of fabrication questions... Minimum calculations... And that daring "龙珠果" lecturer set questions on fabrication processes... When in fact he was the one who had told us to follow the tutorials and not worry about the finals... &*%$#&%(*@... I swear I could had slapped him hard and square across that face when he stood by my side during the exam... But that impulse was kept in check for fear of him failing me on the spot...

EE4905 Biomedical Signal Processing

One of the happier paper I loved... The format followed closely with past semester paper... Though the tedious calculations had me leaving some parts out as I ran out of time... But nevertheless, I had faith in what I had wrote... Just hope that no major moderation as everyone seems to be on par...

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And so, with the end of the final paper today, I have to recollect my thinkings and mindset to prepare for the challenges of my Final Year Project... Starting with the interim report... And to rethink over my choice for dropping the minor in chinese plus re-schedule my timetable for next semester... Hopefully everything would turn out just right and I would wrap up my project on time...

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Exams... 2007...

2007-11-04T11:39:00.000+08:00

Now comes the time for me to bid goodbye to all as I prepare for my finals... Would be inactive for the month to come... But not out of the play yet... So do wait patiently for my return!! Drop any of your comments or wishes at my chatterbox bah...

Cya then!!

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5000 Miles
by Rie Fu

kimi no taion o choudai
atarimae no koto shiritai
kimi to boku to o musubu ito wa　ikutsu mo harimegurasarete
Your temperature, please
I want to know all the ordinary things
The threads that bind you and I – so many of them are stretched around us

kowakatta koto
ima wa sou mo omowanai
shizuka ni tabidatta ano hito ga
ari no mama no tsuyosa o oshiete kureta
What I was scared of
Now I don’t even think about it
That person who quietly began his journey
taught me true strength

Take your time, but I can’t wait anymore

gosen mairu o tobikoete
aitai hito ni　omoi hasetara
watashi no chikara o agetai hito ga iru
doko ni ite mo tsutawaru you ni
I could walk 5000 miles
when I turn my thoughts to the person I miss
There’s someone I want to give my power to
So that it will be transmitted to him wherever he is

kimi no taion o choudai
bokura sonna ni chigawanai
kimi to boku to o torimaku sekai wa
ooki na wakka ni natteru
yukkuri kawatte
yuku mono o hitokoto de
kaete shimau sono kotoba ni
madowasaretari shinai you ni ne　hora
Your temperature, please
We’re really not that different
The world that surrounds you and I
is turning into a great ring
Being changed slowly,
set going by a single word
I’ll change those words completely
so that you’re not bewildered by them – Look

Take your time that’s what they say, but I can’t wait anymore

gosen mairu o　tobikoete
aitai hito ni　omoi hasetara
hitori no chikara de wa dekinai koto ga dekiru
susumu chikara ni kawatteyuku
I could walk 5000 miles
when I turn my thoughts to the person I miss
With one person’s power, I can do the things I couldn’t
And it goes on being changed into the power to move forward

wasurenaide　watashi o　wasurenaide　watashi o
sonna tanjun na negai ga　ima ichiban　omotteru koto
Don’t forget me, don’t forget me
Such a simple wish is now the foremost thing I’m thinking of

ugokidashitara　kimi no soba ni
daremo hitori de wa susumenai
ima ni mo todokisou na uta no nagare ga
mune o atsuku shiteru
gosen mairu mo ichimiri mo
sukoshi mo kawaranai　kyori da to
omoeru you na uta no nagare ga
koko kara demo kimi no chikara ga tsutawattekuru
When it all starts to happen where you are
No one can move forward by themselves
Even now the flow of this song that’s about to reach
is warming my heart
The flow of this song that makes
a distance of 5000 miles and one millimeter
seem truly exactly the same – that’s what’s
letting your power be transmitted, even from here

Lyrics Credit: Frecklegirl

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甚麼正義必勝啦。。。光明的存在啦。。。都是拍電影的謊言。。。
現實中。。。真正笑得最大聲的。。。不是那些大反派嗎。。。

So true...

2007-10-29T15:07:00.000+08:00

While studying for the finals, I had stumbled across two tests on the magazine... Here are the results... Which I find rather true and straight to the point...

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前世你做过什么事？

前世身份：宋朝提刑官（法医），为官清正，屡破冤案，但性情古怪，沉默寡言，一生富而不贵。

做过什么事：接触过不少尸体。

对今生的影响：性格为理智，行事深思熟虑，洞察力和判断力非常精准，不易受流言蜚语的影响或私人感情而左右为难。但具有灵界感应力，容易与第三度空间结下不解之缘！

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你是崇尚柏拉图式的人

你在前世里，总是爱上得不到的人，譬如和自己生活在完全不同世界的人，只要能远远地看着他，你就觉得心满意足。

你渴望的是完美纯洁的柏拉图式爱情。所以，在今世里，你总是幻想自己是小说或电影中的女主角，非常向往这样的爱情。因此对在你身边的男孩不屑一顾，难以激起爱的火花。

你应该现实些，多去接触周遭的异性，总有一天一定能找到心目中理想的对象，营造出你想要的王子与公主的快乐生活，但有时候还是要现实些，期待不要太高。

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Battle Mode again... Yet here I am....

2007-10-28T16:04:00.000+08:00

Exams are just round the corner... And yet I do not find myself committing to any formal preparation for it... Even with most of the modules coming to an end soon, I am still trying to finish two reports... One rather disturbing and sad fact... Report writing had found its way into year 4 studies... Rooting itself deep as most modules required us to produce a few for gradings... I became so sick and tired of it... Not to speak of the endless presentations... Thus, it was a real relief to say GOODBYE!! to HRM... And no more of having to face the two most hateful persons who had made my life so utterly depressed and full of rage... Cheer me on for what's to come!!

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Ever try typing your name in google?? I had out of boredom during one of my design lab... And guess what?? There is someone in Singapore who shared the same name... That someone could be found in NUS... And just so happened to be a GUY!! Shocking right? I had all along thought that my name was quite feminine... But facts proved me so wrong... This made me dying to know how exactly did he write his name in Chinese... Curiosity so killed this sheep... And I would be mindful not to step too close to NUS... As I am not prepared to be mistaken for a guy... Haha...

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明瞭世間紅塵紛擾，遙不可及的夢想剎然消聲匿跡。
淚淌，伸手已不可著的一切，如何尋回？

Personality Test...

2007-10-15T10:59:00.000+08:00

You Are An ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller

You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.

You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.

Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.

Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy.

In love, you are loyal and honest. If you commit yourself to someone, then you're fully committed.

For you, love is something that happens naturally. And you don't need romantic gestures to feel loved.

At work, you remember details well and are happy to take on any responsibility.

You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

How you see yourself: Decisive, stable, and dependable.

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, conservative, and egotistical

What's Your Personality Type?

HRM... Nv again...

2007-10-12T11:46:00.000+08:00

Finally I am freed from the trauma and stress I was placed under for HRM... The presentation sailed through quite smoothly, with minor changes required... No MH means a happy David... He practically told us the answers to his questions... And thus, we had no problem touching up on the report and send it for submission on time...

With the last click for the email to everyone yesterday night, I am cutting off all ties (if there were any to begin with) I have with my group members (referring to the two super wayang guys)... The experience of working with them left such undesired impressions on me that I would go to the extend of blocking them from my MSN from now on... Treating them as non-existence even if I am to meet them along the corridors... They deserved no respect from this fuming xiao yang... One MCP who did not even know how to write a proper acknowledgement or format the report... And another who would back up the MCP and challenged people with harsh emails... I am going to take my sweet revenge on them soon...

They will regret having ever stepped on this xiao yang and deny her efforts and contributions!!

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世上最狠毒的星座分析之金牛座...

2007-10-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

金牛座是冥顽不灵的石头。

固执到死是你的优势，如果没有用固执来保护自己，肯定你活不过24小时！自以为高EQ可以解决一切，就凡事不看、不听、不用心感受，只利用自己肤浅的经验值去做判断，结果就是让爱你的人伤心，伤透了，你还依然故我，一副"是我害的吗？"的猪头样！

你的工作当然顺利啰！因为你阴险的一面是不会轻易显现出来的，尤其不会让你的上司知道，但是你同事就蛮倒霉的，因为怎么被你一脚踹下去的都不知道。你更狠的是，被你出卖的人还搞不清楚自己是怎么死的，你却已经叫他过来摸摸头，证明不是自己干的。真的很想捶你，因为这等用谦逊柔弱的外表骗人的卑劣技俩，到老还不知改过，真的是很恶劣！看来金牛座的坚毅，还真用对地方咧！

如果有人想要改变你，或试图跟你沟通，我想他一定是疯了！因为他正在做一项不可能的任务。最惨的是，他并不知自己做不到，还一直浪费时间跟你瞎耗，到头来青春也没了，人也被你逼疯了，金牛还一脸无辜地说：「没关系，久了他就习惯了！时间能证明我是对的！」废话，谁不知道你真的是"一路走来、始终如一"啊！那又如何？如果只用在顽固不化这项自以为是的优点上，难道还要颁奖给你吗?

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休憩時間10分
by 宇浦冴香

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One week of break?!

2007-10-01T10:55:00.001+08:00

Time had been rather harsh on me... I am supposed to enjoy a week off from school... And yet, I find myself having to go back to school for the various discussions needed to complete all the reports and assignments... So much so that I rather not have the break... Think about it... How could one be happy when I have to report to school as early as 8.30am almost everyday? It was worse than normal school days... And usually, I have to stay till late afternoon before I could sneak off... What a "great" way to spend the precious break... And so, with some reports and assignments still pending for finalization... School re-opens again... And there is less than 1.5 months before I plunge head-on into my first paper... Too fast... Things are moving too fast for my comfort... Could you slow your pace, dear Earth? This xiao yang is soon going mad from the stress and everything on hand...

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The start of this month means more spending on traveling... Though SBS kindly provided a new service route for NTU students... The reduce in the number of stops do not mean decrease in fare... In fact, the fare increases from the usual $0.87 to $0.89... This means that my top-ups have to be more frequent... Or I could find myself in the situation where I have to dig for coins... Please, stop the increments to the fare... It is so ridiculous to be paying more for lesser stops... Though I should not be too surprise considering the fact that I am living here...

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I am taking up a new role in life... To be a complain queen... Since last week, the number of complains I had filed to the respective authority or organizations were so scary that I broke my own record...

The town council had to attend to my two complains... But the fault lied with them... What sort of justifications they had when they did not clear up the mess after drilling on the walls? The contractor should know that the cement powder generated could irritate the eyes and throat when come into contact... And yet, they just leave after drilling, leaving my mom and me to clean up... I am fed up with having to wipe the windows each time they decided to start drilling... And my mom is cursing at the dirt despite having washed the corridor... So much so that I lodged a complaint to the town council... But it did not help as usual... Furthermore, after washing the corridor, we realized that the common drain is choked... So I called up the town council again... Only to be transfer to the emergency group as office hours for town council is 8.30am to 4.00pm... But they sent someone down before 8.00pm, and having understood the problem, promised to contact the contractor responsible... However, the pushing game started again after the job went back to the town council... I am keeping track on how long they are going to delay... If for some reasons they find water around the choked drain, they better not fine us... I definitely am going to sue them back!!

And I am complaining to SBS over the redemption of my e-voucher... That day I specially went down to Tampines to exchange my e-voucher (worth $120 for the bus fare I spent) for the gift item... But they ran out of stock, even though the redemption started only about 15mins or so... Then the staff asked me to provide them my address, and say they would send directly to my house on friday... But that is all a lie... I felt so cheated… How could they do this, and still offer the gift items for people to redeem on the website? What about those who failed to redeem their share? I am waiting for any explanations from SBS... They better do not try to shift the blame again...

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神機妙算劉伯溫...

2007-09-21T10:16:00.000+08:00

After so many years of turning away from the TV in favor of animes, I am going back to having myself hooked up on the TV programs again... Partially is due to the Odex saga, where anime-lovers had to refrain from watching too much animes... But this Taiwan long-running drama just caught my attention... I love how 劉伯溫 uses his wits to thrash out with the forever never dying bad guys... It sort of became a routine for me to get home by 8pm and sit through the entire 1.5hrs of show... Thus, I normally get irritated and upset when the project discussions eat into my precious TV time... And when I am so into this show, I actually find some time to play around its official site... Below is a test result which I would like share... I would not comment on how true the result speaks... Its up to my friends to judge for themselves... Feel free to join in the fun!!

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Try here

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我們因為閱讀而享受，因為享受，所以忍不住分享給更多愛書的人知道。
希望你再忙碌，也不要忘記停下來讀本好書。
讓感動長駐你的心靈，找到它永遠的家。

The types of lecturers down here...

2007-09-07T12:48:00.000+08:00

David was indeed a humorous and kind HRM tutor who dislike MH... He knew that students are very stressed over the first presentation on Blue Ocean Strategy (BOS)... And he made sure to kick the ball rolling and dropping hints like mad to guide us along... His comments were really constructive as compared to the nonsense shootings of MH... David even took the pains to help some groups refine their elements and steer us towards the right focus by telling us what we should improve on so as not to be picked upon if MH sits in for the final BOS presentation... He is also equally encouraging... He kept on saying that our class had done well except for minor parts which needed more patching up... And he promised to reply our doubts ASAP... In the end, most of the presentation inputs were provided by David, and students just need to take note of the advise and not stress over the performance of the presentation...

We were lucky that MH decided not to drop by our class... If not, honestly, I think none of the groups would be left surviving... Not to mention freaking out and yet still not knowing what to do... Yeah, MH is those who misleads students with rude and stupid questions that are not to be challenged... He had re-inforce on this stand since day one... Where the students were threatened with failing grades should we feel that the workload is too heavy, or that we neglect our FYP because of the need to do HRM... Which was rather pissing students off as most FYP tutors already knew of how unreasonably demanding HRM could be... Thus, it is a blessing to be relief of HRM for the time being as the next presentation would be conducted after the recess week... So no MH for at least a month... Horray!!!

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The lecturer cum tutor for the design module that I am taking is just plain racist... He would not bother to explain our doubts, but pays extra attention to an ang moh in our class... What de... How could he be like that?? Are we not his students too... When my friends and I tried to ask him for help with a simulation, he just sickeningly told us to compare our answers with the other groups... And yet he sat down and walk through with the ang moh?? What a horrible professor... He do not deserved to be respected... I seriuosly think that maybe I should just tell apple that I am just signing in and then take off... Since he dun even take the effort to show that he wanted us as students... Or made sure that the number of signatures tally with the number of students presented... The quality of professor is indeed moving downslope... As I am having similar problems with another lecturer cum tutor who taught us nothing but history and dragon-fruit when we should be concentrating on Bioelectronics... Then forcing us to hand in tutorials without teaching us the methods or equations to use... Stupid rite? Man, I am going to have a big problem when it comes to the finals...

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And Andrew take bus to campus?? Whatever happened to his car??

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Almost murdering MH...

2007-09-03T11:20:00.000+08:00

HRM is indeed testing my limits in all sorts... First, I am going back home super late due to group discussions for HRM project and tutorial... My timetable should leave me plenty of time for rest and FYP... But HRM is robbing my life of those things... Who needs HRM to dicrupt our life when meeting up to do projects are straining our time?? No common free timeslots equal to late homegoing... I dun like this... Each day, I practically leave home before seeing the beautiful sun and then forced to reach home when the moon is bright and high... No to speak of the crazy Sunday out... Just for trying to complete the presentation and tutorial for this week... I really need to calm myself down... Xiao yang is almost on the edge of murdering MH in cold blood... He had better take care... The grudge against him is building with the passing time and amount of work...

I need my life back please!! And xiao yang would be positively happier after thursday... Provided that I survive the unknown...

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Little Happiness...

2007-08-23T13:26:00.000+08:00

遇到你真的愛的人時… 要努力爭取和他相伴一生的機會 …！
因為當他離去時 …一切都來不及了 ……！

遇到可相信的朋友時… 要好好和他相處下去……
因為在人的一生中 …可遇到知己真的不易 … ！

遇到人生中的貴人時… 要記得好好感激 …
因為他是你人生的轉折點 …！

遇到曾經愛過的人… 記得微笑向他感激…
因為他是讓你更懂愛的人 …！

遇到曾經恨過的人時… 要微笑向他打招呼 …
因為他讓你更加堅強 …！

遇到曾經背叛你的人時… 要跟他好好聊一聊 …
因為若不是他 ……今天你不會懂這世界 … ！

遇到曾經偷偷喜歡的人時… 要祝他幸福唷 …！
因為你喜歡他時 …不是希望他幸福快樂嗎？

遇到匆匆離開你人生的人時… 要謝謝他走過你的人生 …
因為他是你精采回憶的一部分 …！

遇到曾經和你有誤會的人時… 要趁現在解清誤會 …
因為你可能只有這一次機會解釋清楚 …！

遇到現在和相伴一生的人… 要百分百感謝他愛你 …
因為你們現在都得到幸福和真愛 …

Busy... Busy...

2007-08-20T10:16:00.000+08:00

The new school term had kept me very busy... Even though my 4-days a week timetable allowed me a lot of short days and free time to catch up, I am still very much buried by the amount of work I had to do... FYP for one would be necessary... Then came the various reports and assignments... Topped up with the weekly share of tutorials... This semester also required me to attend numerous group meetings... A result from the many projects or presentations that had to be done... Especially the killer module... Human Resource Management (HRM)... I totally hated this core module... With the amount of work demanded by the stupid head of HRM, this module is actually taking up more than 60% of the time which I could dedicate for tackling all projects and reports on hand... Not to mention tat formal wear is required for all tutorial lessons for this module... Definitely a very unhappy semester for me... As there is still a paper for the final examination on HRM... Despite the many presentations and a big project... Well, what could I do? I just hope to scape through this mess... Pray hard for me to have my wish fulfilled!!

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I am forced to cut down on my anime dosage when Odex won the case of asking Starhub to reveal subscribers IP... A move tat had the anime community based in Singapore screaming in hate... I had my own share of cursing and swearing... And had moved to alternatives... Just hope that Odex do not hunt me down... I am really broke...

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This blog might have a serious lack of updates in the months to come... Just bear with it for the moment... Would post as and when I have the time and mood... Cya around!!

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Back to school...

2007-08-03T15:31:00.000+08:00

It is time for me to bid my goodbyes to my supervisor and mentors... The 30 weeks long attachment with IME finally ended... And yet my project is nowhere near realizing... Vendors are slow in replying enquiries... And my supervisor often or not would be MIA... So much so that the last two weeks were a little more than stressful... I just felt having to push and rush forward to at least try to conduct some testing for the actuator that was accepted by my supervisor recently after months long of rejections... But as expected, the green light came too late for anything fruitful to be done...

And I am throwing the ball back to his court... It is up to him to decide whether to keep the idea or throw it out of the windows... I no longer care... At least I had worked hard and try to meet his design expectations... And I had secured some materials and companies for him to follow up... Should he really want to continue... Though I highly doubt so, unless he managed to find someone to take charge of the project with him supervising the progress... No offense... But my supervisor is just not the guy who would be spotted inside labs... He is those who had earned his authority to command people...

And so that is the finale for my attachment... For the time begin, I would not be thinking about it anymore... Till I receive my result... Just look out for any further post on this matter in the month to come... Then maybe I would be controlled enough to end the whole experience on a nice note... Provided that the grade would not shock me way off till I do nasty stuff...

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The trip back to Malaysia was enjoyable and too short... My sister had joined us in the last minute... Thus causing us to only depart in the late afternoon... Luckily the trip was smooth and fast... In record time we reached our destination... Just in time for a wonderful dinner... The meal was finished in a rush... And then we went to shop... The stuffs are really cheap and attractive... And I am spoilt for choices in choosing the gifts for my supervisor and mentors... But soon night came and we were forced to go back to my auntie house and rest... But not after treating myself to practically two bowls of red bean soup and yummy durian plus more dinner... My mom and my sis almost fainted when they realised the amount of food I ate... Haha...

The next day, after breakfast and some shopping for daily stuffs like shampoo and etc, we embarked on a trip to visit our grandma... Only to be distracted halfway by a huge shopping mall... The entire mall was so grand and big that Vivocity pales in comparison... So more shopping and fun... And when we finally make it to see our grandma, it was way into afternoon... We stay a bit and then left... My auntie insisted that we have lunch before coming back to Singapore... And man, that chicken rice had to be the cheapest and best that I had ever tasted so far!!

The trip back home was however horrible... We failed to secure any tickets for the express bus after travelling to many places... Ended up taking the lousy bus which would stop along the way... And that cost a precious two hours plus as compared to the one hour ride when we went in... Nevertheless, I enjoyed the trip and was glad to be able to visit my grandma... She had aged so much since I last saw her... But with the upcoming semester, I doubt I would be able to return and visit her again soon... Maybe another trip could be arranged for during the national day... This trip was simply too haste to indulge...

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扉の向こうへ
by Yellow Generation

Bokura wa ima demo sakenderu
Even now we cry out

Tashikameru you ni nigirishimeta migite
Uzattai housoku wo buchi kowashite ike
Kizutsuita ashi wo yasumaseru gurai nara
Tatta ippo demo koko kara susume
I order to be sure, I grasp your right hand
We keep running into mixed up laws
I want to rest my painful legs
But I will take one more step and march foward

Yuganda kaze wo kakiwakete
Tsumetai sora wo oikoshite
Sore demo mada samayo itsuduketeru
I push the wind aside
and pass by the cold sky
Nevertheless, I continue to wander

Bokura wa itsu demo sakenderu
Shinji tsudukeru dake ga kotae ja nai
Yowasa mo kizu mo sarake dashite
Mogaki tsuduke nakereba hajimara nai
Tsuki yabure tobira no mukou he
Even now we cry out
Simply continuing to believe isn’t the answer
We bare our weaknesses and pains
If the struggle doesn’t continue, it can’t begin
We fight our way to the other side of the gate

Yayakoshii mondai de karamiatta shakai
Jirettai genjitsu wo kerito bashite ike
Hibou ya chuushou ni fusagikomu gurai nara
Dasan mo yokubou mo buchimakete ike
Being entangled in the complex questions of society
makes me want to kick away this vexing reality
I want to mope about the vicious slander
but I will have to throw away desire and self interest

Midareta NOIZU kakikeshite
Shiraketa shisen furihodoite
Koko kara tsuduku tsugi no SUTEEJI he
I dampen out the confusing noise
Shaking off a daze and continue
towards the next stage

Bokura wa itsu demo sagashiteru
Kasoku shita SUPIIDO wa kaerare nai
Tsuyosa to kakugo tsunagi tomete
Hashiri tsuduke nakereba mirai wa nai
Tsuki susume tobira no mukou he
We are always searching
never slowing down our speed
We fasten our strength and resolve because if
we don’t continue to run, there will be no future
We dash to the other side of the gate

Kazashita PURAIDO ga machigai da to shitemo
Egaiteta risou ga kuzure kakete mo
Koko ni aru subete ni uso wo tsukareta to shitemo
Kitto koko ni iru
If the pride I hold is my mistake
then the ideals I painted will start to crumble
Even though everything here is a tiresome lie
I will still be here

Bokura wa ima demo sakenderu
Shinji tsudukeru dake ga kotae ja nai
Yowasa mo kizu mo sarake dashite
Mogaki tsuduke nakereba hajimara nai
Tsuki yabure tobira no mukou he
Even now we cry out
Simply continuing to believe isn’t the answer
We bare our weaknesses and pains
If the struggle doesn’t continue, it can’t begin
We fight our way to the other side of the gate

Bokura wa ima demo sagashiteru
Kasoku shita SUPIIDO wa kaerare nai
Tsuyosa to kakugo tsunagi tomete
Hashiri tsuduke nakereba mirai wa nai
tsuki susume tobira no mukou he
Tobira no mukou he
We are always searching
never slowing down our speed
We fasten our strength and resolve because if
we don’t continue to run, there will be no future
We dash to the other side of the gate
the other side of the gate

Credits: Youtube and Cherryblossom Garden

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Employed!!!

2007-07-27T10:52:00.000+08:00

I am jumping in joy... The confirmation email which said that I am selected for the job of student helper makes my friday brighter... Despite the wet and gloomy weather outside... Though the job only lasts for two days, it is enough to at least pay for some of my spendings that would have to be forked out real soon... Such as printing lecture notes...

The hourly rate is so high that I was worried that I am never going to make it in the first place, as competition is sure to be stiff... Not to mention that I felt that some of the shortlisted students should not have applied... They do not seem to be in need of the money (I would not elaborate why though)... And yet they are robbing others who are depending on securing the job... Maybe the school is to be faulted... Never could understand their mentality or intentions... Why shortlist people who do not have to worry about the expenses when the job was posted to help less well-off students in the first place?

Not that I am going to complain anything else with the job in hand now... I am more than willing to sacrifice another paid leave to attend the training... One that would be paid too... So generous of the school right? Hope that after this maybe the lab staff would like more help for the official lab sessions throughout the semester... Haha...

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Very fast the IA is coming to an end... In less than a week's time, I am going to bid my farewells to my supervisors and mentors... I do hope that my grade for this attachment would be good... My supervisor seems to be nice enough with high expectations in place... But all in all, it still boils down to the overall score he had given... Clarified with my tutor that it all really depends on the supervisor... They might be giving 6's or 7's for the list but ultimately when it comes to the final item on the list, they might think that "satisfactory" is more than enough to describe the students... And help in getting them an A grade... But the school needed something more... Something like beyond excellent maybe?! Thus the many B's that was awarded to students...

Haha, but that is going to be my least of worries for now... Currently, I am struggling on getting a testimonial typed up... Which is really killing me... My supervisor had gladly thrown me the job of getting it done up when I posed the request to him... He told me that I could write anything I like... His only role in it is to sign his name... Sounds great right? But if you are in my shoe you would be conflicting over what to do... I am totally loss as to how to even start!! It just feels so wrong for me to comment myself... Too plain a write-up, the testimonial would be as good as any waste paper... But too good of it?? I am feeling myself blushing even at the thought of it... What am I going to do?? Anyone... Just help me please??

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Would be going to Malaysia for a short trip over the weekend... Recently, my weekends had been packed with so many events... I was never truly at home to slack... Partial credits to my sister who had been brushing off invitations from my mom with excuses such as examinations and work... So ended up I had to accompany my mom to buy the stuffs she needed... But I am actually quite okay with the planned trip back to Malaysia... At least I could go shop for gifts for my supervisor and mentors... Something which had been bothering me... The many trips that I had made to the shopping malls proved futile over the past weeks... This is because nothing felt appropriate enough... Just hope that I would be able to settle this problem with the upcoming trip...

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I am still depressed over not having a copy of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows... I am currently on the waiting list... Wonder by when could I grab the copy I had reserved??

Haiz~

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The Game of Tagged...

2007-07-16T14:04:00.000+08:00

This game was started by Jiali (lao gong!!) after she mysteriously got tagged by star... So here I am joining the fun to unveil 6 weird aspects of me... Brace yourself for what's to come... Just hope it dun bore the tears out of you guys...

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The Rule:

'Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!'

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1) I am known to be a scary bookworm...

I can finish any volume of books in a day... As long as the book appeals to me and had me hooked... Can go on reading without break or eating... Would be extremely annoyed if anyone dare to disturb me...

2) Weak spot for beautiful and kawaii things...

Since young, I had developed an unnatural liking to anything beautiful or cute... Had a strong urge to possess anything that catches my eyes... Lucky the cravings could be satisfied by collecting postcards, stickers, cards etc... Or else I am going to be in so much trouble!!

3) Rather prefer to have the company of animals than human...

Ok, xiao yang just loves to be among those of the same species... Human could get so complicated and too much for me to handle... Dogs and cats are better friends and support... There is no need to guard myself against anything when in their presence... I am tired and sick of having to act in the face of others... Too bad I am not allowed to keep pets... At least for now...

4) I love to eat...

And I am not saying about the need to eat for the sake of survival... Sometimes I can eat up to more than 5 meals per day... As long as the condition permits (such as slacking away at home), one never fails to find food around or near me... Hard to believe right? Food is the best comfort and enjoyment for me... And I don't really care about the weight thing... Who can when there are so many delicious food out there to tempt the stomach?

5) Can never last beyond 11pm...

It doesn't matter if I am rushing reports or work... I just could never keep my eyes open and mind clear enough to function... So much so that many would find me sound asleep before 10pm... No matter what time I am to wake up the next day... Should I count it as blessing?

6) Hate extreme weathers...

It is true... I am not able to tolerate the warm weather of Singapore... And the coldness of it when it storm... Always pose a trouble for me... As I cannot stand wearing long sleeves under the sun and yet yearn for the warmth they could provide when in an air-conditioned room... Jackets are never effective for me... Leaving me shivering in cold or sweating like waterfall...

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And here is the list of friends I am going to tag... Those who already had the entry on their blog are mercifully spared from posting again... Since my circle of friends is so limited that names would be overlapping...

1) I-mieng (forever my dearest sailor jupital ;p)
2) Hui Fen (I remembered not to add the 'g' behind...)
3) Jiali (the mastermind behind this...)
4) Liping (the apple who tempted the sheep to bite)
5) Xue Ying (tell me more about you ;>)
6) Xue Yan (yan zi to join in the wild fun...)

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Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix

2007-07-15T15:21:00.000+08:00

Picture Credits: Rotten Tomatoes

I truly enjoyed the movie!! This director had managed to create a new outlook for Harry Potter... The spectacular effects and style, plus the choice of BGM never cease to amaze me throughout the show... The choice of actors to depict the new characters was also very brilliant and arresting... Never in a moment throughout the movie did I take my eyes off the screen... The atmosphere was lightened up too by the frequent laughters the crowd shared... The movie had me all hyped up for what's to come... This is one blockbuster of the year that is worth the ticket price... Highly recommended for fans of Harry Potter... On to a dark and exciting journey alongside the cast of Harry Potter!!

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New Guy on the Block...

2007-07-10T11:12:00.000+08:00

A new IA student came on Monday to join in the project that I am currently in... Though he is concentrating on a different field of the project, I am still expected to teach him the skills for fabrication... And the first meeting had me trying to hold back my laughters... He was so nerdy... And he bows to me every now and then... Not that he is from Japan... But he is being overly polite... His attitude had me totally at loss as to what to do or say... I had not expected the new IA student to be like him... And he speaks really softly... So unfitting for his build... Haha... Maybe I should start returning bows whenever he do that... But it would be so funny... Should I ask him to stop his current actions? I mean before I need to consult a doctor on the problem of holding back laughing fits...

I don't mean to be nasty... But I would definitely have him taking on the task of fabrication to perfect his skills at it... One merciful act that could help to keep his time occupied since he has nothing on hand... Great contribution from the girl who got sick of doing things like that and finally earning a chance to help a free soul...

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Happen to see a group of primary school kids on my train trip back home... And started to realize how fortunate and boosy children nowadays have become... The three kids were loud in their discussion of the issue on handphone... One (A-kun) was showing off his handphone to the other two friends... Then one who I thought was the good kid (B-kun) went on to threaten A-kun that he would alert his teacher on A-kun breaking the school rules... Then , the last super bossy kid (C-kun) hushed B-kun and point out that his phone was way cooler than the phone of A-kun... So much so that B-kun took out his own phone (to which I was too surprise for any words... where did the righteous kid went?) and join in the showing off... I almost fainted... Not to say to be way pissed off from not able to nap with the loud discussion on... What sort of mindset had those kids been brought up with?

I have to admit that kids born of this century are so much spoilt than children of my time... They are the decision makers in the family... They stomp the feet and wail like there is no tomorrow just to get the desired stuff they want... They argue with you and make your blood boil... They sleep like an angel and yet play like a devil... Not to mention the world-racking voice they possess... Is the genes of human evolving to result in such types of kids or is the society changing to shape them like this? No matter where I turn, they all behave similar... So scary that its better to avoid direct confrontation with them and minimize any possible handling of them... I am truely fearful of children who are born into this century!!! Credits to both devils at home... Hiaz~

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Start of July... Towards New School Term...

2007-07-05T10:24:00.000+08:00

My wish for a peaceful day... Now that things are picking up pace again, I am longing for the once slacking days that I enjoyed... Quite hard to please myself... If things got too boring, I will be complaining about the lack of activities... And yet, when tasks came rolling in, I am finding ways to escape to dreamland... What to do... IA is soon coming to an end... I need to re-edit my report... Complete my logbook and be prepare to meet my NTU tutor when he comes... Final year project is also on my current to-do-list... I am required to conduct literature review and find some suitable materials... With my IA still on, I am finding it hard to spare time to go back to school for discussion with my professor... But it is neccessary to consult him on a regular basis... I wonder how long I can last before any major illness kick in...

I need my rest and stress-less life back...

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July is a wonderful month for me... ~Harry Potter is coming to town~

Harry has been burdened with a dark, dangerous and seemingly impossible task: that of locating and destroying Voldemort’s remaining Horcruxes. Never has Harry felt so alone, or faced a future so full of shadows. But Harry must somehow find within himself the strength to complete the task he has been given. He must leave the warmth, safety, and companionship of The Burrow and follow without fear or hesitation the inexorable path laid out for him. In this final, seventh instalment of the Harry Potter series, J.K. Rowling unveils in spectacular fashion the answers to the many questions that have been so eagerly awaited. The spellbinding, richly woven narrative, which plunges, twists and turns at a breathtaking pace, confirms the author as a mistress of storytelling, whose books will be read, reread and read again.

Credits: Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

As a die-hard fan of Harry Potter, I am on a look-out for the final instalment of the book... "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows" would be officially released on 21st July 2007... A date I am counting down to... Before I reserve the book with the library... I have to be on the alert... As I expect a lot of people to be eyeing the book once the library make it available for loan...

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Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
Date of Release: 12.07.2007

Harry returns for his fifth year of study at Hogwarts only to discover that much of the wizarding community has been led to believe that the story of the teenager’s recent encounter with the evil Lord Voldemort is a lie, putting Harry’s integrity in question. Worse, the Minister for Magic, Cornelius Fudge, has appointed a new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher, the duplicitous Professor Dolores Umbridge. But Professor Umbridge’s “Ministry-approved” course of defensive magic leaves the young wizards woefully unprepared to defend themselves against the Dark forces threatening them, so at the prompting of his friends Hermione and Ron, Harry is convinced to take matters into his own hands. Meeting secretly with a small group of students who name themselves “Dumbledore’s Army,” Harry teaches them how to defend themselves against the Dark Arts, preparing the courageous young wizards for the extraordinary battle that lies ahead.

Credits: Shaw Online

However could I miss out the movie? The one and only time when I pay and go for any movie is to enjoy a dose of Harry Potter... All Hail Potter!!

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Sakura
by Ikimono-Gakari

Sakura hirahira maiorite ochite
Yureru omoi no take wo dakishimeta
Kimi to haru ni negai shi ano yume wa
Ima mo miete iru yo sakura maichiru
The cherry blossoms fell, fluttering down
Embracing every bit of my fluttering love
Even now, I’m dreaming the dream I prayed for with you that spring
The cherry blossoms scatter

Densha kara mieta no wa
Itsuka no omokage
Futari de kayotta haru no oohashi
Sotsugyou no toki ga kite
Kimi wa machi wo deta
Irozuku kawabe ni ano hi wo sagasu no
From the train I could see
The traces of one day
The big bridge we crossed together
Graduation time came
And you left town
On the colourful riverbank, I search for that day

Sorezore no michi wo erabi
Futari wa haru wo oeta
Sakihokoru mirai wa
Atashi wo aserasete
Odakyuusen no mado ni
Kotoshi mo sakura ga utsuru
Kimi no koe ga kono mune ni
Kikoete kuru yo
We went our separate ways
And brought our spring to an end
My future is in full bloom
But it fills me with panic
This year, once again, the cherry blossoms are reflected
In the window of the Odakyuu train
In my heart
I hear your voice

Kaki kaketa tegami ni wa
“Genki de iru yo” to
Chiisa na uso wa misukasareru ne
Meguriyuku kono machi mo
Haru wo ukeirete
Kotoshi mo ano hana ga tsubomi wo hiraku
The start of my letter to you
Says “I’m doing OK”
You’ll see through that little lie, won’t you?
Even the town going past
Is taking in the spring
The flowers are opening their buds again this year

Kimi ga inai hibi wo koete
Atashi mo otona ni natte iku
Kouyatte subete wasurete iku no kana
“Hontou ni suki dattan da”
Sakura ni te wo nobasu
Kono omoi ga ima haru ni tsutsumarete iku yo
I’ll get through these days without you
And I, too, will grow up
Will I forget everything?
“I really loved you”
I hold out my hands to the cherry blossoms
Now my love is wrapped in the spring

Sakura hirahira maiorite ochite
Yureru omoi no take wo dakiyoseta
Kimi ga kureshi tsuyoki ano kotoba wa
Ima mo mune ni nokoru sakura maiyuku
The cherry blossoms fell, fluttering down
Embracing every bit of my fluttering love
Even now, the strong words you gave me
Remain in my heart; the cherry blossoms dance

Sakura hirahira maiorite ochite
Yureru omoi no take wo dakishimeta
Tooki haru ni yume mi shi ano hibi wa
Sora ni kiete iku yo
The cherry blossoms fell, fluttering down
Embracing every bit of my fluttering love
Those days I dreamed of on that distant spring day
Disappear into the sky

Sakura hirahira maiorite ochite
Haru no sono mukou e to aruki dasu
Kimi to haru ni chikai shi kono yume wo tsuyoku
Mune ni daite sakura maichiru

The cherry blossoms fall, fluttering down
And I walk out into the spring
I clutch the dream I promised you that spring
Tightly to my chest; the cherry blossoms dance

Credits: Youtube and Kiwi Musume's Jpop Page

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What a day... No quite in the right state of mind...

2007-06-27T10:51:00.000+08:00

It had turned out that the coldness in IME is affecting my ability to blog... The stiffness suffered due to prolonged exposure to the low temperature is freezing the brain cells... The drowsiness that lingered on and on prevented the smooth functioning of consciousness... Major writer block is expected to last for quite a long time... And the doctor advised to steer clear of forcing the brain to work too hard... Constantly take naps whenever possible... Stay away from doing too much physical tasks and snack more to keep warm... In short... Serious health alert for the over-taxed brain!!

Okay, I am obviously not thinking right... Hardly easy to keep a clear mind when everyday is so boring... I am facing some sort of depression... Hence the lack of updates for my blog... The motivation I normally felt is killed by some dark shadows lurking in the back of my mind... Something which I could not quite put my hands on... Maybe I am trying too hard... So ended up landing on the wrong side of everything...

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Nothing much happened during attachment... I am sticking to the "doing fabrication and literature review" routine... With only minor improvement in my actuator design... My supervisor had instructed me to get samples from the supplier... And hence I am guaranteed for some real time testing... I wonder how I would feel upon putting my idea into work... Even when I understood that this project is going no way... As confirmed by one mentor... They are closing the entire project soon... So many months of effort on their behalf are not turing up any results... They had came to the stage where they realized that continuing on would only mean wasting more resources and time... But I think my supervisor just wanted me to get some results out of the project planned for me... So the fate of the overall project would not so much as affect me... Maybe only in terms of reducing my workload by not doing fabrication...

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Travelling on the train and bus to get to work is really getting on my nerves and foot... Am I sporting a huge sign that invites people to go ahead and step me? It is irritating and painful to have your foot stepped on... Jerking you rudely out of the daze and having the pain shooting through the poor feet, making me hissed and almost swearing out loud... What is wrong with those people? Don't they know that they have to be mindful of their footing, even if caught in a crowded train or bus? I could still be forgiving if the said person is a guy... But high heels? Pardon my cursing but I am not prepared to be walking around with a sore feet in a big fat ugly cast... Those ladies need to be screamed at and send off to take some basic course in balancing... Or at least not to over-estimate their skills in it when it concerns the well-being of my foot...

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Renovation is still on-going... What more could I say? Better to hold my tongue now before I bite off anyone's head... A statement of advise from Xue Ying... Never engage that company for any other renovation works again...

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我身边走过一千人,我却能清楚地听出你的脚步声。
因为九百九十九人踏着大地,而你却踏着我的心。
他们是我身边的匆匆过客，你却是我用心留住的人。

The Partings...

2007-06-15T09:30:00.000+08:00

Everything finally ended on a fine note... The poster presentation turned out to be real boring and slacking... Lady Luck was indeed lending a helping hand by having all managers and the directors out of office on the day for poster presentation... Hence, only the staff was invited... But the number of people to grace the event was so bad that the room became the common ground for students to chat and snapped pictures before partings... Even the HR lady who was in charge of us was trying so hard to appear interested... So sad right? Afterall, a lot of efforts were put into designing the posters... And yet, the only people to be wowed were the students... It was a shame to be hosting such event when no one really bothered...

The photographer actually gathered most of us late in the evening for group photo taking... Never mind that he is the sole person in IME who is in charge of photo taking for any events... But his lack of creativity really had most of us laughing like mad... The poses he wanted were in fact the same as those of previous batches... And the catch was that he never gave any signal as to when he was going to press the buttons... Thus, a lot of photos turned out very funny looking... This made the photographer a little demanding... He had us performing the same stances for so many times... Especially the part where he made all of us walk a distance towards him before jumping up in "joy"... This tired us out... And I was in "lucky I did not wear any high heels" sort of mood...

Eventually, the group dispensed and students went in their own ways... The six months plus of attachment had been one enriching one... Despite the fact that I am still in IME all by myself... The friendships established here... The joys and stress that we all went through together would mark one memorable piece in my land of memory... All the best to my friends!! See all of you soon when school re-opens!! Haha...

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無論時光如何飛逝
絕對不想失去的想念仍長存
被細雨沾濕仍靜靜地綻放著
如同勿忘草壹般!

June... A month to bear with the partings...

2007-06-04T10:20:00.001+08:00

What a sad sad month... I am going to be waving so many goodbyes to my IA friends... The time has come for them to depart for the better... And I would wish them all the best... Would be missing Xue Ying horribly... Hope that this friendship would last till the end!! Anyway... Would be counting the days to come... And would treasure them with all my might...

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Living a live of the modern caveman is so boring... Almost everyday I would be sleeping before 9pm... And the long weekend certainly did not help to lighten my mood... I am just sitting around the house, looking at the workers... Sometimes, I would find myself staring at the ceiling of the bedroom that is still mercifully mine to use... No TV and no internet... Even the gameboy became a bit too dry to be of any entertainment... In the end... I broke my own record... By visiting the library for three straight days... Wonder if the staff down there finds me too familiar and weird... I could care less... I am seriously in need of finding something to occupy my time... It is so no fun to be stuck in my situation... The renovation work has better be complete on time... Or I am going to be the one to go mad soon!!

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Part of me
by Ayumi Hamasaki

Tokidoki boku wa omou n da
Bokura wa umareru zutto mae
Hitotsu no inochi wakeatte
Ikite ita n ja nai ka tte
I sometimes wonder
If we had lived
Sharing one life
Long before we were born

Datte karada ga hanarete mo
Kokoro wa ima mo sugu soba ni kanjiru
Because I feel your heart so close to me now
Though our bodies are apart

Itsu datte itsu datte kikoete iru yo
Boku no na o boku no na o yobu koe
Douka mou nakanaide kimi no omoi wa
Tsutawatte iru kara
Always, always I hear you
Calling my name
Please don't cry any more
I know what you are feeling

Aru toki boku wa shitta n da
Betsubetsu ni umareta bokura wa
Dakara jibun o fukanzen ni
Omotte shimau n darou tte
I once knew
That maybe because we were born separated
We come to think
We are imperfect

Onaji shiawase o negai
Dakara onaji kizu o kokoro ni kizamu
Because we desire the same happiness
We keep the same wound in our hearts

Itsu no hi mo itsu no hi mo wasurenai you ni
Kurikaeshi kurikaeshi sakebu yo
Douka mou nakanaide kimi o hitori ni
Shitari wa shinai kara
Again and again I shout
Not to forget you at any time
Please don't cry any more
I won't let you alone

Itsu made mo itsu made mo kimi o omou yo
Kimi no koto kimi no koto omou yo
Toki ga moshi nani mo ka mo kaete itte mo
Kimi no koto o omou yo
I'll protect you for ever
I'll think of you
Even if time may change everything
I'll think of you

Tokidoki boku wa omou n da
Bokura wa umarekawatta ra
Hitotsu no inochi wakeatte
Ikite iku n ja nai ka tte
I sometimes wonder
If we will live
Sharing one life
If we are born again

Credits: masa @ AHS

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无论什么时候都不要回头
要向前，向着目标努力!

...

2007-05-29T13:58:00.000+08:00

It’s Judgment Day…

I deeply regret to be trialing two individuals who offended me over matters concerning the same issue. But the injustices done to me were too great to be ignored…

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Name: Someone who I refused to address him by his name anymore

He was the one who did not manage to complete his IA report on time… And I had agreed to his proposal of delaying the submission of the report as a group… It was only fair right? Since he had promised that he would be collecting all the reports and hand them personally to the tutor… I am such a fool to fall for such an old and obvious trap… All it took was one weekend to expose his pitiful lies… He failed to meet his own extended deadline… And had declared sick… By then, I still try to be forgiving… And put forth my trust once again… But today… All lame excuses I had to pardon him evaporated… I knew something was horribly wrong when the other two students under the same tutor did not turn up in the morning… And the person in question was no way to be found… When I finally got pissed off enough to send a message to ask him politely about the issue, my patience was once again tested… For more than half an hour, the phone remained silent… He did not bother to answer… Throughout the same time, my anger just exploded exponentially… So much so that I decided to write an email to my tutor to say that I would visit him and submit my report on my own… It was until the time when I was reading my tutor’s reply, and was subjected to another shock revelation, that he sent a message to ask me to settle the issue on my own… In a tone that did not sound anywhere near apologetic at all… If I could, I would really like to murder him with my own hands… How could he make use of such a trust put in him to his own gain? Mark my words… From today onwards he has best not cross my path…

Judgment passed:

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Name: Who else but my NTU tutor??

Though I should treat him with all due respect since he is going to be the one to grade me… I am totally disappointed in him… He had committed such a grave mistake… One that had me going through hell literally… Looking back to the days I spent trying so hard to type a decent IA report, I felt like a utter fool… What is the use of pushing myself so hard till I am completely freaked out when the deadline is still so far? All the sacrifices that I had made became nothing more than stupid acts… How could he? And the worst part, he refused to reply me after I pointed out that he had told me to hand in the IA report together with those who are under the normal IA scheme… I really felt like cursing him over the phone after confirming that I am required to hand in my report in July… His weak attempt to sound sorry did not help to pacify me at all… The damage was done… And I am left to clean up the mess… Emails had to be sent to inform my supervisor and my mentors, so that they would disregard the IA report I sent them… And I have to go through another round of the editing nightmare when the real deadline draws near… Am I such a bad kid that I am being punished? Why is the tutor so irresponsible? Why didn’t he check with the school properly when I first emailed him? And why did he only admit the slip when I called him instead of getting straight back to me? I am totally disgusted with how he had handled the problem… This emotional pain inflicted was beyond any form of cure… And this incident further proved what a lousy school NTU is!!

Judgment passed:

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谁，会没有梦想？
不到最后，谁又会放弃梦想？
谁又有资格，硬说谁是真正错了呢？
梦想，有时只属于自己。

Super Happy... Finally stress free... for now at least...

2007-05-28T10:15:00.001+08:00

Been waiting to write this...

I finally completed my IA report and Poster Design!!

The past few weeks had been one rough ride... Never before had I felt so stressed and freaked out... The rush to meet the deadlines almost drove me over the edge... And the person responsible? My supervisor... He held too high of an expectation... And yet he would always drag things on and on... He never bothered to read the report drafts that I sent him... So ended up I always have to consult him personally and make him go through it on the spot... This proved to be an almost impossible task... Since he would be MIA for most of the time... Yeah... He has been really busy as he is scheduled to fly to US for a conference that would last 2 weeks... Definitely not a welcomed plan when I need to finish my report before he leaves...

The only thing he was truely concerned about was the poster design... He actually made changes and provided lots of comments... This amazed me... Seems like most supervisors are very uptight when it comes to this... Maybe the prize had them motivated... Although it was said that the rational behind this was that the supervisors did not want to be shamed in front of the people who would be gracing the event... But who am I to care? The poster design is just another necessary, if not boring, requirement for me to pass my IA... I am confident that I would be just standing down there... Trying hard to appear interested, and not dozing off on my feet... But most importantly, I pray that I would not have to explain my poster too much... Just to the judges would suffice... Afterall, my supervisor would not make it in time to come back and see my performance... Haha...

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Today is the first day of renovation work for the house... Had been super tired over the weekend... The shifting and removing of furnitures was a killer... Never had I knew that my house has so many things... Luckily, on saturday my sister bf came and helped with the heavy stuff... And sunday my brother came back from his camp to continue... Got a little pissed off at those cleaners... They never remove those pieces of furnitures that we decided to throw... And so in the end, we had to take them to the rubbish collection station a few blocks down... To only be ignored again... The cleaners just look on while the pathetic ladies tried to unload the heavy furnitures... So much so for paying more than 50 bucks for maintenance fees every month... The service received just went further downhill with each passing day...

But the house looked very big and clean after we shifted everything into the bedrooms and storeroom... It was also refreshing to be having dinner without tables and chairs... Something which had my dad nagging whenever he had to sit on the floor to eat anything... But the real challenge starts today... I have to brace myself for the dirt and the lack of facilities to use... Bye bye to the comfortable days for now... Hope that the workers could work fast and complete the job within 2 weeks... Then, back to cleaning the house again... But I am sure that I would be more than grateful to be doing that...

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I am still shopping around for a pair of sneakers... My current pair is wearing out fast... But I am having trouble in deciding what to buy... The ones that I had tried were not too comfortable... And the prices were a little steep... I hated having to go through this... Buying shoes was never easy for me... My feets are just too unique... They differs in sizes (though not to obvious, but still a major problem when it comes to selecting covered shoes)... Furthermore, I am always "bitten" by new shoes... No matter how good the brand... Sad case right? But I have to really get a new pair of sneakers no matter what... Although I think I would shelf the idea for the time being... I do not want to add on to the mess the house is already in with more stuff!! That would give me more time to think about what to get...

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快樂是無價的。。。

Snappish sheep...

2007-05-12T11:13:00.001+08:00

The stupidest act any one could pull... And it was committed under the name of NTU IA program... What is the difference between normal IA and Enhanced IA (EIA) other than the term of stay with the attached company? What is the rationale behind having ignored all EIA students? Why do they have to make me hand in my report so early? So many unknowns... And yet never any answer...

Could be said to be really lucky... Had I not sent an email to my NTU tutor asking when should I hand in my report... I do not dare to imagine the outcome... I could have fail my IA without me ever knowing why... Such a close call... So now I am forced to concentrate on writing a decent report... Very bad timing... As my design had just underwent another modification after a meeting with my supervisor and another colleague who is very experienced in the magnetic field... So… Nothing much to put into my report... And I have to keep in mind not to include anything visual from the project... Not even any measurements taken... My supervisor is super-hyper about confidentiality issues... Had been breathing down my neck over some design drawings which I had added in my logbook... And thus... Hope that he would not find my first draft to him too crappy... I honestly have no idea what to concentrate on and add in... Afterall, the project is still halfway through...

And so back to the forever hopeless school system... So far... All the information sent for IA only addressed students on normal IA... Not a single word for poor souls like me... Which makes me doubt whether EIA is scrapped... This pissed me way off... And I promise that the feedback form would be full of complains... Trust me... That is how far my tolerance could stretch... Try to be funny in other area... But never mess with me when the issue on hand concern whether I could graduate smoothly and on time... No wonder the school never perform well in any rankings... It is lacking in too many serious ways... Just my luck to have enrolled in this school in the first place...

Had quite enjoyed myself over the little birthday party held for the younger one on thursday... He finally turned three... And is starting to act like one... Or many too like one... Sentences and reasoning from him often or not could scare the hell out of you literally... I wonder where he had picked up those mindset... Too mature... But do not be fooled... His actions would remind you why he is still a kid... One who is growing up and testing the limits and boundaries he could set foot on... Sometimes seeing him scared me stiff with a horrible headache... And yet for the times when he is all angel and lovely... Hope he had enjoyed the mini party... And wish him all the best he could have...

Happy Birthday Aaron!!!

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我们的双手不是同样的东西吗?
既然如此,两者之间为何有那么多的不平等存在呢?

Birthday Girl...

2007-05-07T09:35:00.000+08:00

This birthday girl is pissed off...

All the happy and light mood from the wonderful gathering with my friends evaporated in an instance... I am being forced to see unreasonable faces and bear with accusation that never occurred... Completely ruined my plan for a peaceful weekend... One that is hard to come by as the two little devils did not sleepover... I am fed up, and I feel like smashing anything I could lay my hands on... It was tiring enough to have to pack up stuff in preparation for the stupid renovation... And yet in return, all I got was one word... Selfish... A completely groundless and shocking accusation... What is wrong with them? When had I been keeping only my belongings? Why was it that I had to keep my mouth shut over this? I am such a weakling... And yet I know that I would be the one to suffer if I say anything in response... Blame myself for being such a busybody... Should had just leave the things and get a scolding, rather than wearing myself out and then still be faulted...

I am also fuming in anger over the use of computer... Why am I being denied the use of it? This is absolutely unfair, since I am made to pay for the monthly internet fees... But my sister is getting her right of way, as if she had owned the entire computer... And she would only allow me to use when she had done something horrible... Best way to shift the blame, cause she would then never be the last one to be seen using it... Furthermore, my mom had made her stand clear... Nobody touches the computer as long as she feels like playing internet games... Something that had me clenching my fists every time when I am trying to watch my animes... Seems like they are the only ones who are allowed to enjoy their entertainment using the computer... This is getting on my nerves... And my heart bleeds for the amount spent on internet fees... Why are the ones who fork out the money suffering from this? My brother and me are not earning big bucks, and yet...

Haha... now feeling better after expressing myself... Would like to thank my friends for the lovely presents... And I had enjoyed the gathering... Which had lots of surprises for me... Would be mindful of my actions during work now... LOL... Plus I now know that one of my close friend in primary school still remembered this bad friend who had lost touch with her... Indeed, the world is a small place... One could never predict where and when and how you would stumble across someone whom you thought was lost... Hope that I would get her contact soon... Afterall, it is my blessing that I still had a place in her heart...

But for now... Back to enjoying my pinky birthday!!

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歌曲：朋友
歌手：周华健

这些年一个人
风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错
还记得坚持甚麽

真爱过才会懂
会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒

朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我

这些年一个人
风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错
还记得坚持甚麽

真爱过才会懂
会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒

朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒

朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒

朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我

一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒

Credits: 歌词大世界

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我不知道流星能飞多久,值不值得追求;
我不知道樱花能开多久,值不值得等候。
我知道你我的友谊能像樱花般美丽。
孤独时仰望蓝天,你是最近的那朵白云;
寂寞时仰视夜空,你是最亮的那颗星星;
闲暇时漫步林中,你是擦肩的那片绿叶;
疲惫时安然入睡,你是最美的那段梦!

Luck turning for the better!?

2007-05-04T14:06:00.000+08:00

Days, weeks and months passed by without me feeling like having achieved anything...

IA still is the same old boring story... I would drag my feet to work, slack through the day and pack up to leave on the dot... But, the recent simulations had kept me busy... And I am actually getting positive responses from my supervisor... Rather creepy to read the "thanks" and "you have done well" replies from him... I mean, that was so unlike him... Maybe he got too bored... And was trying to entertain himself by making his IA student loss for words... Or I am just being too wicked to suspect even the slightest thing... To be truthful, my supervisor had somehow made me feel better after reading his confirmation of my work... At least I am getting somewhere where he intended... The only no no part would be the stress to generate some results for him to see... He could get quite annoying when he put on that "expectations" look on his serious face... He is no one to mess with when it comes to doing his project... He demands to have results fast... Not to mention the forever changing ideas he had floating around his brain... And I had learnt to never throw out any proposal made, as he would be quick to re-visit the concept and have you implementing them... Keeping those in mind, I should be able to enjoy my stay under his guidance... Then, I would not feel too miserable and regret my choice in extending my IA after my friends leave upon completing their IA...

Was rather worried about the fact that the NTU tutor whom I had approached to ask for a project for FYP did not reply my many emails... Scary thoughts like he had kicked me out of his list after finding someone better tortured me for the past few weeks... So much so that I am prepared to apply for leave and rush to school after some advice from Hui Fen... But luckily, I finally saw a reply from him... And he had indicated that he had allocated one project for me... The one that we had discuss about when I went to speak to him... He actually asked me to decide whether the scope sounded okay to me... I am so moved and relief beyond words... And took no time to reply his email and clearly stated that I wanted to take that project... So one less worry off my mind... And in time to let me enjoy the gathering with my friends for this evening...

The stupid weather was so unpredictable nowadays... Rain or sunny... The sky just can't seems to make a clear choice... I hate waking up every morning feeling so cold... And the need to use the umbrella is freaking me out... Rainy days always spell trouble as I would be late... Not to speak of getting wet despite the umbrella... And the fustrating thing is that I could never decide what to wear... It could be bright and warm outside, but freaking cold inside IME... Or leaving you feel like you are stranded in North Pole during rainy days... This is getting on my nerves since I am in the midst of trying to recover from a flu... I am experiencing the same horror that had not came knocking on my door for so long... The dread feeling of never going to escape from the flu till I leave IME... Why can't the people feel the too extreme temperature and do something about it? Are they really that healthy not to be bothered by the situation... Maybe I am just not cut for enjoying the air-conditioning... Or I just have to get myself thicker clothing for jacket... And start going round IME looking like one stuffed idiot... Hiaz~ Hope that this is just a passing thing in IME... Since I had not have trouble for the first few months...

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在人生的旅途中，最糟糕的境遇往往不是贫困，不是厄运，而是精神和心境处于一种无知无觉的疲惫状态。

May... towards a busy month...

2007-05-01T10:38:00.000+08:00

Romeo X Juliet (ロミオ×ジュリエット)
Premieres April 4th, 2007

Genres: Drama, Fantasy, Romance
OP: "Inori ~You Raise Me Up~" by Lena Park
ED: "Cyclone" by 12012

[Thoughts]

This is a story of a tragic love, set in the aerial city of Neo Verona. Tyranny rules this island in the sky after the Montague family took control 14 years prior. The disparity among the wealthy and the poor is apparent in the present state. The sky itself is wrapped in a deep dense fog. Both Romeo and Juliet's lineages are of present and past ruling families of Neo Verona. Romeo is the son of the current Montague dictator. Juliet (a beautiful woman) masquerades as a man (Odin), and she is the last descendant of Capulet, the previous rulers who were killed by assassins sent by Montague family 14 years ago. Her true background is not to be revealed to her until her 16th birthday while being raised by her sister. The cruel hands of fate introduces 2 people who will become "Star Crossed Lovers".

This had been a very classic story to be known among English Literature... A tragedy by William Shakespeare concerning the fate of two young star-crossed lovers... One famous play which I had read during my secondary school time... And so, I firmly believe that the anime adaption by Gonzo would be rather boring... As I had known the story too well to be surprised... But yet... After listening to the amazing opening theme by Lena Park and after watching the trailer, I am drawn by the quality and mystery that shrouded this new anime for Spring 2007... One of the gem hidden among the many good productions...

Seeing how Juliet fights for justice under the name of "Red Whirlwind", how Romeo unknowingly saved her while riding a horse that could soar through the air started the momentum for this love story... The meeting between them at the ball was incredibly beautiful... And I am totally owned by the arts and music... One very plus factor for any anime... Despite the fact that I think I know how the story would end... Sadly but truly, I would follow through this wonderful anime and cry myself a river for this pair of star-crossed lovers...

「祈り ~ You Raise Me Up」
by Lena Park

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"Keep Holding On"
by Avril Lavigne

You're not alone
together we stand
I'll be by your side
you know I'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
there's no place to go
You know I won't give in
no, I won't give in

Keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through
we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
there's nothing you can say
nothing you can do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so, keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through
we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
before it's too late
this could all disappear
before the door's closed
and it comes to an end
with you by my side
I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah

Hear me when I say
when I say "I believe."
nothing's gonna change
nothing's gonna change destiny
whatever's meant to be
will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da, la da da da
La da da da da da da da da

-Ahh, ahh-
Keep holding on
-Ahh, ahh-
Keep holding on
there's nothing you can say
nothing you can do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so, keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through
we'll make it through

Credits: Youtube and Graffit

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人究竟什么时候会死?
是心脏被枪打中的时候? 不对!
得不治之症时吗? 也不对!
喝了剧毒香菇汤之后吗? 当然不是!
而是被世人遗忘的时候!

Random Musing ~ 1

2007-04-25T13:26:00.000+08:00

Haha... went on a mini hiatus... just ran out of idea on what to blog about... can't really help it when my current life is so dry and bored... Monday till Friday standard working routine... Saturday would often see me wasting half a day for nothing due to the presence of the two little devils... Yeah, a sleep-over on Friday night at my house had became a practice... And I am hating it cause with the return of my brother from Taiwan, I am back to sleeping on the floor by the bed while trying to make myself more comfortable on the stupid thin matress... Sunday is the only day where I could enjoy some quiet moments to myself alone... Doing whatever I like... But that is soon to be changed with the renovation of my house coming up... Would have to drag my feet along to choose the colors and tiles... Though I doubt my preferences would be considered... A simple and yet sad reality when one have a dominating sister who could always find ways to fault your actions... But I had learnt to live with it... Or at least I could keep my head in those situation and remain silent... With angry thoughts and curses running wild in my fuming mind...

I tend to not want to make my life miserable over having to fight over small and silly things that she cannot reason out... That had allowed me to pass days and years in relative calm... Hence, it would not be too surprising to hear people commenting that I am keeping to myself too badly... I prefer my own dreamy world than having to be involved in too many happenings around me... Call me a hopeless dreamer who is soon going to lose her touch on reality... I just like the way I am... I am good at dodging hotcakes that came flying straight in my face... I can shut out things that I don't want to see or hear... Through my growing up, I had picked up the skill of taking everything positively in my strides... At least skilled enough to not be bothered with any upsets for a long time... I would find ways to go round any hard situations... And sometimes I would voice my feelings out in nags to keep myself in delicate balance... Thus, I am grateful for my very few friends who could bear my senseless complains...

All in all, I would try to pay more attention to my surrounding... And would start by taking a small step at a time... But never deny me of anything I like to do or greatly enjoy... I am contended as I am now but would tune up to match the harsh reality soon... Afterall, I have to brace myself for the society and the world once I graduate... And keeping myself in my own sweet heaven would cause me lots more trouble than now...

Outward-bound!!! Way to go for now!!!

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世界上最痛苦的决定不是两者择一,是只有一个选择而你却不得不放弃。。。

Purple brain... And Final Year Option...

2007-04-16T10:12:00.000+08:00

Received the email that alerted me of the posting for my Final Year Option... And as expected, I was allocated my first choice... Not much of a thrill or relief, as I think the school would just award all students with their first choice... As long as no mistake was involved during the selection period... The real fun came after I started counting the number of students who opted for Electrical and System Engineering (my option) out of boredom... And was surprised that only about 20% out of the total students in EEE opted to specialize in this area... This amount to roughly 185 students... Haha... I don't know whether to be happy or depressed... Many students preferred to specialize in Infocommunication Engineering... An area that had me rising my white flag in utter surrender... Who knows... Maybe this would give fersh graduates of Electrical and System Engineering an edge over others down the road... Since the number of students contesting in the market for jobs in this area of specialization would be relatively smaller than that of Infocommunication Engineering or Electronics Engineering (the other available option)... Or so I hope...

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Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic.

You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?

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有些东西，不是有决心就能够争取到的；机会要争取，但，在她来临之前，请耐心等待。

The Heart of a Lioness... Touching story from Nature...

2007-04-14T17:36:00.000+08:00

Story Source and Picture Credits: Saba & Dudu: Heart of a Lioness

Happened to tune in to SCV Animal Planet yesterday... And watched this really amazing story shown on "Lion Pride"... I almost fell off my chair when the show started... A story about a lioness adopting a young oryx calf...

This astonishing act dated back to January 2002, where a lioness in Samburu National Reserve, Northern Kenya, was first seen to be in the company of a week old oryx calf... This sighting was reported to the rangers, and the rangers kept a tab on the unusual event... And indeed, the odd pairing stayed together for almost 16 days... During which Kamunyak (the name given to the lioness) never hunt any prey at all...

Kamunyak always stayed close to the young oryx calf, never letting it wander out of its sight... Furthermore, the calf was utterly reliant on the lioness for protection against predators... With the only biggest problem that faced them was the fact that both animals were on the brink of starvation... The calf could not digested the grass that it ate, as oryx calf as young as it depends on the mother's milk... And Kamunyak had not tried to hunt any prey or steal any kill when it was with the young oryx calf... Except for one instance, though the hunt was stopped half way as Kamunyak realized that the calf had tried to follow a herd of adult oryx... Seeing Kamunyak roaring in a desperate attempt to find the young oryx calf made my heart ached... However could this motherly affection towards a young oryx calf happened? Especially when Kamunyak was still considered young, and had never went through the pain of losing any cub... This was an act that defied the laws of nature...

Tender interactions between Kamunyak and the calf were witnessed by tourists who were attracted that and filmed on TV... This went on for 16 days until tragedy occurred... The odd pair was ambushed by a full-grown lion... My heart cried for Kamunyak, who was flattening against the ground in fright with claws out... The desire to rescue the young oryx calf and yet fearful of the lion tore across Kamunyak's face... The lioness was awfully distraught, and yet it had no choice but to listened to the cries of the terrified calf at it's dying moment... Kamunyak had reacted exactly as what a mother would when she lost its cub ... Obviously, the motherly love the lioness had for the calf was way strong for human to comprehend... People from all across the world had just seen a miracle happened... One between a predator and a prey...

This strange obsession Kamunyak had with young oryx calf went on, with reports documented for as much as 6 adoptions...

1st Adoption: 16 days – calf eaten by male lion (Dec - Jan 2002)
2nd Adoption: 2-3 days – calf rescued by Kenya Wildlife Service (Feb 2002)
3rd Adoption: 2 days – calf rescued by mother, lioness injured (Apr 2002)
4th Adoption: 24 hrs – calf abandoned, rescued by mother (May 2002)
5th Adoption: 2 days – calf starves to death and eaten by the lioness (Sept 2002)
6th Adoption: 24 hours – calf escapes back to its mother (Jan 2003)

This strange phenomenon was indeed very interesting... Had it not been screened on TV, I would had dismissed this as a rumor... Nothing as surprising as this was predicted, given that it was a well established fact that any predator would hunt mercilessly for preys to feed on... Kamunyak had displayed an almost impossible affection for the calf, and this was not just once, but six times... I am sure that deep inside Kamunyak, she was not a real scary predator, but one with a heart... She had shown how attached she was to the calf during the span of 16 days, and the loss stung her as much as any grieving mother... It was kind of sad to see the miracle ended in the most cruel way... The lion tongue that used to gently comfort the calf, and the all-too-familiar teeth became the tools that killed the calf...

From now on, I am so going to see predators with a different point of view... One that was changed by a lioness and a calf...

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生活的无奈之处是你永远都无法预料下一秒会发生什么，但生活的精彩之处恰恰就是这些突如其来的考验！