Thursday, May 18, 2006
This is totally crazy... How can I stay alive and kicking with such dull and tasteless life?? Apart from going work, staying home and trying to stare a hole at the computer, eating, sleeping, studying Advanced Theory (which I do not advance very far...) for driving, building my gundam model, reading "The Da Vanci Code", day-dreaming, watching some shows on TV, catching up with the animes, doing DIP project, shopping for accessories to make beautiful dresses, drowning in library...blahblahblah... But why do I still feel so void and dead even with the packed schdule to pass time??
It's not that I do not enjoy the events that I do (though some like working is very tiring...imagine having to tidy up a whole month of documents plus screening some messy accounts to find out why the balance is so way different in a short three days... Man, I thought I am going to be having nightmares from just looking at them....), but they just do not give me any feeling of contentment (does this word exist??). I don't know how I should put in it words, but this sort of lifestyle just do not go along with me. Yeah, I am stupid and sounding like one too. But I do wish to be doing something more exciting, more mysterious and out of ordinary. This must be dire consequence of been confined in this normal and boring life for too long. That's where all fanciful thinkings that are lurking in my brain stem from. I want to go somewhere, away from this hopeless and repetitive life...I want...I hope...I yearn...
Ok, I give up my rattlings...Somebody hit me real hard to jerk me out of this madness...
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Here, is the dark side of me...
I am a Taurus.
(Also known as "Bull")
Petty, annoying and a whiny pain in the neck, a Taurus loves to brown-nose and is often a snitch to boot. In life and work, always blows with the wind, and runs to answer to his supperiors' smallest whim.
A chronic poser (will pass himself for an altruist, or in the case of a woman - a tortured soul), while harboring contempt for those around him, and in his mind fancying himself the center of the universe..
A Taurus loves wealth, and will greedily collect it in secret for most of his life. He is willing to sacrifice the last bit of wealth for a good cause - as long as it's someone else's.
Ego-centric, with a sadistic streak, he will terrorise his family from childhood until his old age, all the while managing to project the appearance of love and kindness.
Tauruses love preferential treatment, and will usurp such privileges whenever possible.
So friends...beware!!
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はじめまして。
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よろしく おねがいします。
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Don’t Look Back
浜崎 あゆみ
Modore nai modora nai kaeru basho wa mou nai
Ikura furikaette mo kaerare nai
Kirei na ashiato ni nuri kaeta tokoro de
Jibun no kokoro dake wa damase nai
I can’t go back, I won’t go back, there’s nowhere left for me to return
However much I look behind me, I can not change my footprints
And even if I paint over them beautifully
My mind won’t be deceived
(Don't look back) Kakkowarui
(Don't look back) Tokoro koso ga itooshii
(Don’t look back) The unattractive
(Don’t look back) parts of myself are dear to me
Modore nai modora nai kaeru basho wa mou nai
Ikura furikaette mo kaerare nai
Kirei na ashiato ni nuri kaeta tokoro de
Jibun no kokoro dake wa damase nai
I can’t go back, I won’t go back, there’s nowhere left for me to return
However much I look behind me, I can not change my footprints
And even if I paint over them beautifully
My mind won’t be deceived
(Don't look back) Waraeru no wa
(Don't look back) Toori sugita kara koso
(Don’t look back) I can smile
(Don’t look back) Because that period is over
Susumi tai susume nai sou yatte Mayotte
Iru tte koto wa mou mayotte nai
Koko de todomaru nara ikuraka raku kamo ne
Dakedo mune o kogasu shigeki mo nai
I want to go forward, I can’t go forward
Hesitating like this means that I won’t hesitate anymore
It would be easier for me to stay here
But nothing would excite me
Nee dare mo kamo iidasu no wa
Ichiban kagayaite ta koro no jibun
Nante sore wa kanashi sugiru wa
What fulfils everyone is the period in their lives when they shone the most
How tragic that is…
Don’t look back
Susumi tai susume nai sou yatte Mayotte
Iru tte koto wa mou mayotte nai
Koko de todomaru nara ikuraka raku kamo ne
Dakedo mune o kogasu shigeki mo nai
I want to go forward, I can’t go forward
Hesitating like this means that I won’t hesitate anymore
It would be easier for me to stay here
But nothing would excite me
Modore nai modora nai kaeru basho wa mou nai
Ikura furikaette mo kaerare nai
Kirei na ashiato ni nuri kaeta tokoro de
Jibun no kokoro dake wa damase nai
I can’t go back, I won’t go back, there’s nowhere left for me to return
However much I look behind me, I can not change my footprints
And even if I paint over them beautifully
My mind won’t be deceived
Konna fuu ni maku wa orosu
Anata nara ...
The curtain falls in this way
And you…
Don’t look back
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