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I am truly upset over those numerous brainless acts from NTU… Especially over the issue of Industrial Attachment registration… How could the school limit the number of position one could apply for involving interview (1 only… out of the 10 available choices we could make)?? Even the dim-witted could spot the problem with this rule… Do not expect me to happily abide by that nonsense without any grudges… Not when the number of jobs offered under the interview category is way much bigger compared to the non-interviewing ones… Furthermore, the posts up for grab are more attractive… But under the imposed regulation, I am forced to drop the choices that I yearn for (biomedical sector)… And to pick something which I honestly suspected to be performing mainly administrative work… To add on to my anger, the short list of non-interviewing jobs which I could try for is littered with “Singaporean only” labels… What had the world come to?? Even the companies are discriminating students according to nationality (some even to the point of male vs female)… And the school is silently consenting to it!!

All in all, I think that it would be better to refuse me entry into this registration… At least I would not be feeling so terrible… So hurt that I am still trying to nurse the lick… An inflicted pain that should not have existed in the first place… Not when you are staying and studying in a place where the government is trying so hard in promoting the idea of equality in the fields of schooling and job market…

Though I should not be overly surprise at what the school system had to offer… And had long learned of my place in this society with the type of identification card I am holding… Yet the harshness of reality hurts… I felt rather betrayed over how the school is treating the future of us, students who they should be nurturing… Ahhhh… the conflict of interest is getting the better of me!!

Well, since no amount of nagging or cursing could change the crisis I am in now, I am going to force myself into accommodating the current situation... But that is only for the time being... I am going to put on my "Ah-Q" mentality to endure this ridiculous "feat"... And in the mean time, I would start to look for better opportunities out of this little confined island... Don't expect me to commit myself here - a place where I would never be able to soar freely and openly with the wing of dreams...


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The project is killing me... Whoever is the idiot to have come up with such a time-consuming module that only award one academic unit?? Not only is the entire idea a total freak, it is also one of unfairness... Like me, a downright unlucky person, I am stuck with one project that required me to do lots of wiring (so much so that I have to spend time on weekend to finish up the messy wiring)... Plus a software program to handle... This left me fuming... And I am going to take back what I said about the VHDL project (which pales in level of difficulty and amount of time spent)...

But what to do... I still have to wrap up the task on hand and produce a report for submission... So let's just hope that my partner is able to tackle the software, while I would give her a working hardware!!

Let's hope...


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And here's what I promised:

Andrew, I wouldn't forgive you for locking yourself in the office too!!

Haha... Just kidding la... But it's wonderful to know that he can still crap... Despite the stress and disappointment at work... To be true, it is sad to see such a passionate and talented tutor being oppressed by the school system... I just hope that he can find meanings in whatever he is doing, and continue to stay in NTU for the benefit of other students...